felt like i needed to put some sort of explanation for my absence, even though i had no idea how to present it on FA! gonna comb through my DMs sometime soon
in short, i'm working a 12 hour dayjob temporarily for now, so there's obviously not much of me left conscious enough to draw afterwards. i still work on commissions in my day-offs, but even if i do finish them, something in my head prevents me from posting most of them, but i'm trying to work on that
i'm already looking for something with less hours, because i really don't want to abandon commission work! Also i have a lot of personal doodles\art that i feel too guilty to post if i haven't posted anything work related before that (i'm afraid it'll look like i'm just slacking off lmao)

In the start of this year i was really stressing out about "commission artist isn't even a real job and i can't even do that shit right",because i was struggling with things, so i decided to test myself in some way with getting an irl job. test result show that 12 hours of running makes my toes go permanently numb

my mental and money situation has just been pretty tough after i've lost my savings last year, and i felt like i couldn't rely on commissions in this state (hipo\boosty bullshit was really adding on top of that), so i felt like getting another job would be the answer

now i'm doing a bit better in money terms, and i really want to start working on getting better mentally too. Also i really want to try and organize my commission workday schedule damnit

sorry for rambling and basically asking to be patient with me again, i always feel like i never deserve that luxury lol. Thank you all again for just looking at my art, i always need to remind myself that people probably won't kill me if i break my own made-up posting schedule