when I was planing to go, I knew I was gonna meet you
when I was leaving, you couldn't come, that was the truth

I came to the place where we where gonna meet
but I could only see the bed, with a empty seat

I was laying down on it, thinking about how you did it back at your home
I couldn't get you off my mind, without you I felt so alone

the night falls in, and I dress off and gets to bed
I was twisting and turning, had you in my head

the biggest wish I had, was to be with you now
I take my last move, before I put my pillow to a bow

weird dreams came in my mind, some that was light, some was dark
but when I was in my dream, I suddenly see you and off the mark

I could hear your steps come to my bed, you where big and strong
then you lay over my body, I was waiting for this for so long

your warm muscled body was getting into my back
I felt your kind and high heartbeats, but my mind was blank

you come over my head, your lips came to my ear with a close touch
you saying sweet and low that made my heart raise: "I love you so much"

I never wanted this to end, we where happy and together
this is something I want, I want to be with you forever

I knew I didn't have any clothes right now, but that I didn't care
I could touch you with my hand, you where big and nothing to wear

I was so happy, but I couldn't see a thing becaues I didn't want it to end
then the lights comes throu the window, and I could see, and I was feeling bend

when I turn around, you wheren't there anymore
I felt unhappy, lonely and maybe a bit tired or

I was sitting up, having a silly smile on my face
I know you wheren't here this year, and soon come back to this place

because next time we meet and there was no rush
then I say "I do love you, I love you so incredible much"

as then, I leave this room and bed, nothing was feeling right
then I say "don't worry, next time we reach so incredible high"


this was a poem or a lyric I came up with while I was in the AC and in the hotel. I know it's not so good, but I just wanted to let it out.
I misset that Coling didn't come. but for next year, for sure, we be together!


this is a drawing I made on the flight back home. I just misset Colin so much and all, and had to make it. before I went on the plane, I was texting Colin. and when I got back home with my drawing done, I watchet over his reply and was telling that I should make a drawing like this, laying over me on bed and all that. that's a creepy and cute coincedence, isn't it? ._o

love you Colin, this is my gift to you