That artwork really captures deep emotions, and I totally understand where you're coming from.

Lately, I've been losing friendships over trivial things, and some friends even allow their friends to mistreat me, just because they're nice to them, it's somehow okay for them to treat me terribly and say hurtful, backstabbing things. None of them have the courage to address any issues they have with me, let alone offer a sincere apology.

The pain of betrayal whether from strangers or close friends, cuts deep, especially when I've always been there for others, only to be cast aside and left feeling like a drifter. Now, I'm burdened with heightened anxiety, worsening depression, and serious trust issues, constantly on guard just to avoid unnecessary stress and drama. I know there are good and kind people out there, and I've met some, but I can't shake the fear of who might betray or lie to me next.

It's hard to let go when I was completely caught off guard, and I'm still trying to process everything.

I'm sorry for my vent moment there, I got carried away and it seems you know a thing on betrayal from the people you care about. I hope you been doing fine and it is okay to focus on yourself now! 🌸🌸🌸🌸

I know the feeling so well and relate in so many levels. I been losing people left and right non-stop, its been years but recently just hit me real hard. Depression got me down and when i seek some people for a bit of comfort i got told to "man up" and "tired of you being a martyr". (As if i wanted to be one, pff). And others just a small pat with a fake smile minimizing the issue then told others have it worse as my issues were something light.

For me, the pain i feel and have endured so far never got me this bad but guess it stacked with the decease of some family and the huge crime spree and wild fires around my town (by that time), but seen the people i put my trust into.. fading and giving their back.. just triggered a chain reaction and all went from bad to worse. Nights of nightmares with very gory details, sleeping but not resting and very apathetic self.

If i'm honest.. am not healing at all, my mind keep lurking into all the darkness. All the people and circles that closed on me, the people i shared a special bound with, the good times that would never come again. It just bitter me alot, not to mention when i see the social media and i see the people having a blast and i'm here like a spare waiting to be called when they need.. bitters me alot. After the big storm passed, i notice i have lots of remnants that might stay forever, for example.. with the few people i talk, my smile its not present, yeah i chuckles and grin when things go funny and such but usually i just stay really quiet and stare at the void, listening, not making eye contact. Is sad but people push me to the edge, this is what they get.. And the reason why broke my sacred oath of being for them.

Its okay that you get carried away and vent, actually enjoy talking about this, its not the best kind of topic but you can feel the true empathy coming from an stranger, a weird kind of comfort but in the end makes you feel slighly better.

I really hope you doing fine and well!, if theres something bothering you hope it goes away soon. And if needed, well, here i am to listen, might be broken but still carry the light for those who really needed it.

Your words carry so much depth, and I just want to say that your emotions and experiences are valid. Losing people, facing hardships, and feeling like you're drifting alone in the storm, it's heavy, and no one should dismiss that. I'm truly sorry for what you've endured.

You have a beautiful resilience, even in the way you express yourself. You still carry light, and that’s something extraordinary. Even if healing feels distant, even if the world feels indifferent, your feelings matter. And thank you very much, I appreciate it. I'm getting over on what happened between me and my ex friend. Now I just don't care anymore and it is in the past now 😊🌸

And thank you for your kind wishes, I hope, more than anything, that brighter days find you soon, and that the remnants weighing you down grow lighter over time. You deserve peace and warmth, even after all you've been through. Please take care. 🌸💕