sort of just rambling about my life
warning for pet death and descriptions of such.

my partners cat passed away recently after i caught a lot of concerning symptoms while they were on their trip. i thought maybe he was going blind, it was seizures due to extremely low blood sugar caused by a negative reaction to his insulin. im someone who has a lot of intense pet trauma due to growing up in an animal hoarding household that would often force me to care for the pets due to others neglect, that paired with my experience as a farmer has left me very sensitive to pet death as a whole. it doesnt help that, for some reason, i ended up being the one to deal with his physical body while the others were dealing with the finances of it all. piss and shit covered my bed and i had to beg on the internet for money to do my laundry because i have no income. all i could think about is how this keeps happening. i'm exhausted of hurting and i'm tired of trying.
anyways.
im doing a lot of AVA art because at the moment its one of the few things i actually really enjoy. i struggle not to have mixed feelings about most things and this is one of the few things im able to enjoy without conflict. sorry for people who wanted more furries, but also ive always been open about not feeling attached to furries or animals and only using them as a sort of metaphor for the inhumanity the internet tends to breed in people.
more stick figures to come.