This was from a while ago, I made an icon of a character/fursona I've been in the process of designing. I never posted it because there was something really bugging me about it, but looking at it with fresh eyes I was able to fix the main things that were bothering me I couldn't put a finger on before. It's still... just ok in my opinion, but now good enough to be posted. As for the character, I was trying to fill a niche in my fursonas. Sylvan is my "main sona" that represents me overall. Rhea and Penumbra are equally important, but they represent specific parts of myself. There is fluidity between my fursonas, but generally it only really feels right for Rhea and Penumbra to be drawn when I'm expressing the aspects of them they represent. They don't really work as a general "stand-in" for myself. This works really well within the lore of my fursonas I've created, however, there are often times I want to represent myself generally as a feral - especially in instances where I am interacting with other feral characters like of friends, but Rhea and Penumbra don't really work for that. So I've been thinking about creating another fursona to fix that issue, to just act as a general feral representation of myself. While I've for the most part been extremely happy with the design I've created (Which will likely be posted in the near future), I've had a hard time integrating them with my fursonas and defining their identity. Adding them kind of throws a wrench into the lore I have established of my existing fursonas, and I'm not really sure how to adapt to it or what I should do, or perhaps if they should be a "non-canon" fursona in relation to that lore and instead more meta? The identity thing is another issue, though I have some hope that'll come with time. For me, my fursonas often develop subconsciously and intuitively, and are almost like a "black box" to me. Not completely of course, but I guess a metaphorical way to describe it is I will have certain feelings, traits, or things I want to express that I recognize and don't have an outlet for currently. I'll create a fursona which becomes a sort of empty vessel, and those feelings and things now have somewhere to go and fill up that vessel. However, more and more things end up adding to it and mixing in, often-times things I didn't even recognize in myself until contemplating the sona, but first I have to interpret them and figure it out like a puzzle, or even harder - accept that they exist in the first place. I have learned a lot about myself thanks to my sonas because of this, and they also give me a sort of sandbox to experiment with myself through. But this one is a bit of a unique case, since to my knowledge I'm not creating them to express anything new necessarily, moreso just having another Sylvan but feral to fill that role. But thinking of this character with Sylvan's traits doesn't feel right at all, and I'm not sure why. So something is there, I just have no idea what and the water is extraordinarily murky. I'm not sure how to nudge them to take shape. It's an odd conundrum. I wonder if anyone else creates or relates to their fursonas in a similar manner?

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