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This, unfortunately, didn't really turn out the way I was hoping- and I don't really like it but I managed to finish it and I guess there's that?
A bit of a bigger piece. I don't really do backgrounds or environments; especially interior environments with lots of individual pieces. They take a long time but they were pretty necessary for this so I am a little glad I tried something new here... even if it didn't really end up looking the way I'd hoped.
Anyways; a bit of a vent piece?
Some of you might be familiar with my personal life as of the last decade or so. My physical and emotional health has been on a pretty steady decline and as of 2016 I've been incapable of leaving my home for any reason. I cannot step outside, I cannot walk anywhere, I cannot ride a bike, I cannot go in a car- nada.
Most of my time is spent in my room, on the computer. I play games but there's only so many that I'm able to play, and so much attention that I can give to them that most I have to play on easy mode in order to keep myself busy.
I often feel pretty stuck... demotivated. Like I am just not good enough at anything to really be "winning", not in life, not with games, not with art- not even relationships? Everything feels like a huge struggle and I catch myself wondering why. Why is everything so difficult when it seems like I'm doing everything on "easy mode".
I'm really tired of feeling like I'm just losing all the time at everything; and I was kinda wanting to depict that here. I don't think I did a great job but maybe some other time.
A bit of a bigger piece. I don't really do backgrounds or environments; especially interior environments with lots of individual pieces. They take a long time but they were pretty necessary for this so I am a little glad I tried something new here... even if it didn't really end up looking the way I'd hoped.
Anyways; a bit of a vent piece?
Some of you might be familiar with my personal life as of the last decade or so. My physical and emotional health has been on a pretty steady decline and as of 2016 I've been incapable of leaving my home for any reason. I cannot step outside, I cannot walk anywhere, I cannot ride a bike, I cannot go in a car- nada.
Most of my time is spent in my room, on the computer. I play games but there's only so many that I'm able to play, and so much attention that I can give to them that most I have to play on easy mode in order to keep myself busy.
I often feel pretty stuck... demotivated. Like I am just not good enough at anything to really be "winning", not in life, not with games, not with art- not even relationships? Everything feels like a huge struggle and I catch myself wondering why. Why is everything so difficult when it seems like I'm doing everything on "easy mode".
I'm really tired of feeling like I'm just losing all the time at everything; and I was kinda wanting to depict that here. I don't think I did a great job but maybe some other time.
Category Artwork (Digital) / All
Species Wolverine
Size 2437 x 1512px
File Size 3.64 MB
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I'm really sorry to hear that and hope, at the very least, you're on the road to recovery if you've not made it out just yet! It's a really difficult place to be- emotional issues alone are hard to deal with but physical health stuff on top of that is truly terrifying... oftentimes overwhelming. I can definitely empathize.
Despite that I do still try; I've been trying for years. Just gets to me sometimes.
I appreciate the comment, though! I feel like I missed the mark by a mile but reassurance is really nice and very much appreciated <3
Despite that I do still try; I've been trying for years. Just gets to me sometimes.
I appreciate the comment, though! I feel like I missed the mark by a mile but reassurance is really nice and very much appreciated <3
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