SO. Late last night i got my main assessment result back and unexpectedly I passed. Genuinely I expected to have to do that assessment again so suddenly it has freed up a lot of energy I was holding onto waiting for the resit. It was the biggest hurdle I have to qualifying to be a therapist. Now I just have to finish getting my hours in (41 hours left to build) and do some admin stuff and its basically done. I'll be qualified to listen to peoples problems and officially help with mental health... Three years I've been training and it really is into the final weeks now. I really can't believe it. How much this course has swallowed my life and how much it has changed me, and through it how much i've come to realise that it's okay to be me. That rather than judging myself for how i am, to be curious, to see who i am as if experiencing myself without judgement, as if seeing me for the first time.
That's kinda what i was trying to convey here. a sense of hope and curiosity and a gentle belief that things will work out.