Hi! It has been a while hasn't it? I have been sending out messages to those I owe art to, so if that's you, check your discord or patreon! There should just be one person I have left to contact, because I am finishing the piece in question today, so everyone should have a message by the end of the day. I will be working through that backlog until I've caught up, and then I just want to keep making new art from there.

The short explanation for my disappearance is the ever-vague "mental health issues". I have been learning more recently about my family history of mental disorders, and I am coming to terms with the reality that I'm going to need a certain amount of help and medication to function on a daily basis. Lately I have been taking my meds, and I have been dragging myself through some big changes that will ultimately make life more manageable. It's a lot of legwork, but I am already doing a lot better!

Truthfully the worst part of coming back is the embarrassment of admitting to another one of my unexplained hiatuses. I never wanted to be someone who is difficult or untrustworthy, what I want is to make lots of art consistently. My greatest worry is that I'll never be able to beat this negative aspect of myself. But, no matter what I do I can never stop myself from making art, so I figure I must find some way to manage myself and make it work!

I'd like to continue doing commission work eventually, but given I have a significant backlog, and I don't quite trust myself with the responsibility yet, I'm going to do this in phases. I'll work on the backlog until it's done, and probably do some random diaper art and requests on the side. I'll also probably make some adoptable characters at some point, because truth be told I could use a bit of extra money, and I enjoy designing characters. Only when I've been doing this consistently for a while (long enough for it to be a habit) and have completed everything I currently owe, will I consider taking on new commissions.

(I also want to mention that I am trying to log into my twitter account, but it just keeps giving me an error message ;_; I will keep trying to figure it out, but honestly I don't know what's going on with that website. Once I'm able to get into my messages on there and respond I'm not sure I'll want to use twitter much more. I have always preferred furaffinity, the only issue is that it gets a bit rocky sometimes so I like to have a backup.)

As a final block of text before I get back to the art, I just want to say again how much this stuff means to me. As I've come back to this account I'm reminded again that my art means something to other people, and they think about it even when I'm not posting, and that just means so, SO much to me. Over the years I've gotten so many kind messages, it honestly is one of the few things that makes me tear up to think about, because I regret all the art I haven't made. It feels like a big loss, knowing that I have the power to make people happy and I fall behind. I've accepted that its best not to dwell on it, and I should just pick up the pieces and keep going. One of the things that gives me motivation is when I see a new diaper artist that has found my art and is posting their own. Sometimes I can even see where they took inspiration from my art, and it just warms my heart. I'm really glad that I can inspire others, and that I can share this happy place of mine. Anyways, I think that's enough sap for now, I'll get back to drawing!

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I drew this Derpy a good long time ago now, but man it's a good one. Every time I see it in my files I tend to open it up and look for a minute, I just really like this piece! I have a big soft spot for a cuddly diapered Derp, she is certainly one of the cutest ponies in G4. She just wants to suck her lil hoof and show off her soft cozy diaper! I hope yall enjoy <3