Well, this has been an enlightening time.

After 3-ish months of introspection and meditation, this is where I have come to. The Identity Changes.

I am otherkin, as I fully identify with my fursona. I am the Dragonbear and He is Me. I feel the wings, the tail, the fangs, the claws. And yet when I go to touch them, they do not exist. Not in this form anyway.

Along with that, I also have realized that I am Salmacian, which is where you desire to have both sets of 'bits'. There are surgeries that I could possibly get IRL that would achieve this. Part of this is still having some attachment to my birth gender. Whether this is due to my BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) and having a splinter of my Teenage Feminine self or not is something I still have to investigate internally. I want to just be me and be comfortable, the gender binary and norms be damned.

Orientations changes as well. As much as the AroAce community has been comforting, I now find myself more to be Panromantic and Gray-Demisexual. Yet again, this has been over time as my brain and body finally start aligning.

I am still Norm, I still use He/Him, and I still will eat an entire box of mac and cheese by myself. But this is how I choose to present myself!