Expectations are so heavy...

Both external and internal can be, true.

I feel this. Writer's block is a constant pain.

True. For me, though, it comes from not having much desire to write for myself, as opposed to writing for other people. It's something I struggle with a lot.

I'm very much in this pipeline with you, friend. It's very difficult to learn but long term success with anything requires internal validation and value to some to fruition. When anything is just for others or to meet monetary needs, eventually that thing becomes a chore and there's no fun left to be had.

But you are deserving of enjoying writing for yourself and I hope you can find it someday. If you'd like unsolicited advise from someone else stuck with you: try to sit at your computer, take some breaths, and force yourself to be so bored that you start writing.

And, best of luck. ❤️

It's certainly a challenge, I find, being able to write for yourself. I find it much more fulfilling to write for other people, as I can see something tangible from that. When I write for myself, I don't really get much satisfaction. But still, that's something for me to work on. Thank you for the kind words~