The quote is in reference to another painting I saw that gave me much feeling and inspiration to paint this.
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I recently found out about a month back when I initially started this painting that I have a form of OCD that I didn't even know was a type of OCD/symptom. Its called magical thinking OCD.(I already have a mild form of OCD that involves vocal tics, organization and germ phobia that are triggered by stress specifically or excitement.) Personally certain thoughts, songs, colors, memories etc. trigger symptoms and they can be strong or low depending on what exactly triggers the symptoms. The kind I experience is believing I need to be in a location or place that has some sort of significance but I have no idea where or why or how I get to the place I'm imagining in my head. It is fragmented into small parts so I only see small parts like a garden, part of the ocean, a treehouse, a portion of a room or even objects sometimes and I always get that heavy, gloomy kinda feeling like I'm lost or I'm not in the right place, I need to get out. I'm glad to have a better understanding and knowing that its not me just going crazy but a symptom of the OCD. Luckily this symptom isn't stressful like typical OCD symptoms its mostly emotional and I easily manage it by drawing or touching things in my room that I like. This painting was used with colors that I was associating with the feeling of magical thinking at the time.