I'm still trying to pull my life back together and honestly it's been extremely hard to do so. I've isolated myself for so long that my friends are leaving and my family is getting worried about me and my social life, they've always told me that I need friends or people who I can trust and rely on but I just keep pushing those people farther away from my life. I've pushed my own family away, I barely even talk to them about my own issues anymore. I've shut out all the possible light in my world, I don't know or I can undo the hurt that I've caused myself. I truly am alone.