aahhhh!!! my god.... what a fucking year!!!! 0___0 thank you all so much for being here alongside me <3<3

i wanna take a moment to reflect on 2025, and by extension a bit of 2024 as well... i've done SO MUCH personal growth in the last 2 years, and it hasn't been easy. but 2025 has frankly been a welcome reprieve from the teething issues of 2024. feel free to read the following, or don't, follow your dreams!! don't let ANYONE kill your heart!!!!!!!!!! 🌹

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2024 was REALLY fucking hard. having migrated all the way from new zealand, 2024 was the year we actually settled down in scotland for proper and started renting our current place. again, i'd never even left new zealand before all this, nor rented the same place longer than a year... that's two pretty significant firsts already!

myself, my 2 wifes and our friend have been cohabitating since 2022. after leaving the country together, we did SO MUCH travelling, made HEAPS of theatre, and i created all kinds of art that i'm still SUPER proud of!
but man... 3 people each bringing their own neuroses and preconceptions to a relationship - this might surprise you, but it can get a bit fraught!! there was an anvil that had been teetering on the cliff's edge for quite some time, and this time last year was when i found myself in the subsequent dust cloud. i had no idea what would happen, no idea what to do, and i was just absolutely terrified.

i'm not one to whitewash my life to others, even when i perhaps ought to. i find authenticity too relieving to pass up. but it can be tricky knowing what to hold back, or finding the energy to get into it all in the first place... sometimes it's just too scary to acknowledge at all. the end of 2024 felt like the end of everything.

but i'm still here. we're still here. and i wouldn't change a thing. i'm stronger and more independent now than i'd ever hoped would be possible... i didn't think i'd see my twenties, yet here i am at the other end of them! here i am, learning how to live off my art in all its fucked up glory! last week i just straight up told my extended in-laws what i do for a living - it didn't occur to me til afterward that most people would probably omit most of what i said!!!! but yknow, i said it. i said how much i love my work, and feel personally enriched by it. and NOBODY balked!!! nobody was disparaging! .......probably because they were all a bit shocked, but yknow, fuck it, we move!!!!

i'm so proud of everything i've done in the past 12 months, both in my life and my artistic endeavours. i'm so looking forward to seeing what else i make of this wild and precious life!!