THU AUG 07 2025

this was kind of a huge day for me
for a while now before this day, i had begun to feeel self conscious about my hairline, despite having pretty long hair (it was close to reaching hip length by then), but at the base of it, it really was receding, and as i had noticed, it seemed to be because i was constantly wearing it tied back, as i was getting what felt like traction alopecia.

so, i ended up making the call to cut my hair today, asking cat BF to help me cut it off (as he does hair stuff for work)
i was honestly quite relieved to get this done, and it actually felt like a big step for me personally in terms of my identity

whether i wanted to admit it or not, hair i'd been growing out since about 2015-2017 definitely was a big part of my identity.

So, cutting it off, along with other changes (halting cosnumption of green stuff, and functinally ending all of my premiscuos behavior) feel like integral parts in changing how i've behaved as of late.

I would say it's definitely a change for the better. At least for me personally, changing all of these things has been pretty beneficial (less emotional distress, less anxiety from worrying about health, less anxiety about being stared at in public for long hair, easier to "fit in" with most other people in public)

at least i find those things to be quite comforting. I guess i didn't mind standing out somewhat, but i find being able to blend in easier and a lot more comfortable.