depression is a horrid killer of a person.
I have delt with nothing but darkness, I hold up nice masks to pretend im "fine" to the outside world but i am getting so fucked up tired of it..
Well I am not okay!
I am broken, I am tired, I am fucked beyond believe!!

I go to bed with anxious shakes all over my body and they hurt..
I wake up in tears and cold sweat.

My heart is going to be the death of me..
I swear I am legit thinking of just leaving fandom, and events all together..
I cant do this shit anymore..

I just want to go to sleep and not wake up anymore..
I cant do this shit anymore..

why am I always getting kicked in the teeth for having feelings!?