Just a little frame from real life^^
This is some kind of childhood fears to me, I can't even look at the needle /)_(\
P.s. If you like my artwork, please consider supporting me on Patreon
Every cent helps a lot ^_^
This is some kind of childhood fears to me, I can't even look at the needle /)_(\
P.s. If you like my artwork, please consider supporting me on Patreon
Every cent helps a lot ^_^
Category Artwork (Digital) / All
Species Unspecified / Any
Size 876 x 1300px
File Size 1.18 MB
I used to be so scared of needles is that I needed to be held down.
Now though? I'm fine as long as I watch. I can't describe the process but it feels like taking a breath and live so much in the moment that I stop thinking about what is happening instead I am just an observer outside of my body watching it happen to someone else. I'm not even processing memory at the moment. It is just something that is, I am something that is, it all just is. Thus none of it matters and it just can happen.
Now though? I'm fine as long as I watch. I can't describe the process but it feels like taking a breath and live so much in the moment that I stop thinking about what is happening instead I am just an observer outside of my body watching it happen to someone else. I'm not even processing memory at the moment. It is just something that is, I am something that is, it all just is. Thus none of it matters and it just can happen.
That actually sounds like depersonalization, a common sensation of 'out of body' experience described by people who live on the Trauma or Dissociative spectrums.
it doesn't have to mean anything, you can arrive to depersonalization through meditation, recreational substances, forms of deliberate relaxation, and fatigue. But it sounds significant, and may warrant some journal keeping if you notice this kind of experience is something you have during times of stress.
it doesn't have to mean anything, you can arrive to depersonalization through meditation, recreational substances, forms of deliberate relaxation, and fatigue. But it sounds significant, and may warrant some journal keeping if you notice this kind of experience is something you have during times of stress.
FA+

Comments