I did this the same day I brokedown to my mother for the 6th time...and school hasnt even begun yet.

It's amazing that despite all of the love and support i get from friends and family...i never get past the pain and worry i put myself through.

i was told by my doctor that maybe I should be put on medication for my depression and anxiety.

i was told by my mom to come back home if music school was too much for me

i was told to read the scriptures and pray to God

but none of that helped.

except prayer of course.

but sometimes prayer is not enough

sometimes we have to kick our own ass in order to pull ourselves together

when you have no one else to bring you down...why the fuck should you DO IT YOURSELF.

Allegorically speaking, Darkness ( the lion with the sucker in his mouth) maybe appear to be cold-hearted, but he is the opposite.

Darkness represents the inner will and strength and courage within me. Sometimes God will do that.

Darkness will encourage you int he most blunt way possible because he knows that being subtle will not work on me. (as in real life tough love is what got me this far in the first place.) so this is his way of showing how much he cares. so in reality Darkness is my conscience.

Look for page 2 and 3 following this story.