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So you know...
I'll confess, in truth I had known long ago
That you had gone and left me alone
But you know
I'm the kind, of fool who would just let it go
And not let the pain ever show
Really clearly I'll say it
Make a note and swear I'll repay it
Let's arrange, that we'll meet, in the heat, of the day just take me with you
The flowers last after they scatter
Every day out in the summer heat had mattered
Talk your heart out, give it a voice now, shouting it all loud
And when
I reach my final day, just once could you smile once again?
I'm sure
There on my final day, I'll sing this song full of love
And you'll smile and tell me I finally did enough, yeah
Sadly there on my final day you won't be the one by my side.
Long ago you went and left my life.
Once more, once more, once more, once more
Once more, once more, once more, if you could
Once more, once more, once more, once more
More now, no doubt, speak out.
Been off HRT for a few months now due to insurance and trying to get hooked back up but with my work's. Just waiting for it to get active and reestablish a care team for it, mental health issues, and such. Hormones have been fucking me up so hard with menstrual cycles hitting again, emotions been swinging out of control like a pendulum, developed near constant migraines, often bad nausea where I feel like I'm going to vomit my guts out. The physical pain is a lot, even comparing with the depression when it acts up due to running out of the last of my medication for it. Spiraling hard and my mind keeps focusing on the loss of two relatives who've been gone now for ten + years and it's been making me a sobbing to hollow mess out of nowhere which honestly was the last straw and influenced me to finally make a vent piece to try and cope with this cocktail of pain. Itte/Say It has been a song I've listened to nearly religiously since it came out after their deaths, even before ever coming out, and it helps a lot with just unloading this fucking bullshit. At least most of this is temporary and once I'm back in therapy and medicated it'll be tolerable again to progress. It's hard trying to speak about this due to my speech impediment and how heavy my tongue gets trying to speak of the more vulnerable shit lately, typing is a lot easier to get this unloaded.
So you know...
I'll confess, in truth I had known long ago
That you had gone and left me alone
But you know
I'm the kind, of fool who would just let it go
And not let the pain ever show
Really clearly I'll say it
Make a note and swear I'll repay it
Let's arrange, that we'll meet, in the heat, of the day just take me with you
The flowers last after they scatter
Every day out in the summer heat had mattered
Talk your heart out, give it a voice now, shouting it all loud
And when
I reach my final day, just once could you smile once again?
I'm sure
There on my final day, I'll sing this song full of love
And you'll smile and tell me I finally did enough, yeah
Sadly there on my final day you won't be the one by my side.
Long ago you went and left my life.
Once more, once more, once more, once more
Once more, once more, once more, if you could
Once more, once more, once more, once more
More now, no doubt, speak out.
--Been off HRT for a few months now due to insurance and trying to get hooked back up but with my work's. Just waiting for it to get active and reestablish a care team for it, mental health issues, and such. Hormones have been fucking me up so hard with menstrual cycles hitting again, emotions been swinging out of control like a pendulum, developed near constant migraines, often bad nausea where I feel like I'm going to vomit my guts out. The physical pain is a lot, even comparing with the depression when it acts up due to running out of the last of my medication for it. Spiraling hard and my mind keeps focusing on the loss of two relatives who've been gone now for ten + years and it's been making me a sobbing to hollow mess out of nowhere which honestly was the last straw and influenced me to finally make a vent piece to try and cope with this cocktail of pain. Itte/Say It has been a song I've listened to nearly religiously since it came out after their deaths, even before ever coming out, and it helps a lot with just unloading this fucking bullshit. At least most of this is temporary and once I'm back in therapy and medicated it'll be tolerable again to progress. It's hard trying to speak about this due to my speech impediment and how heavy my tongue gets trying to speak of the more vulnerable shit lately, typing is a lot easier to get this unloaded.
Category Artwork (Digital) / Digimon
Species Digimon
Size 1131 x 1131px
File Size 1.45 MB
Thanks, the wait kinda gets unbearable at times but at least there's the emphasis on at times, having people like you, close friends, and my found family has been making it a lot easier to breathe when that pendulum swings. Hope you're doing well, thank you again for the kind words.
Shit is fucked. Really sorry to hear that's been going on behind the scenes, I hope you can get what you need soon and that it'll let up.
I can understand when you say it's easier to type than talk, scream into the void as much as you can if it helps.
Wishing you only the best and good things your way
I can understand when you say it's easier to type than talk, scream into the void as much as you can if it helps.
Wishing you only the best and good things your way
It's mostly just a waiting game at this point along with just tolerating day-to-day until I can get back on all of my meds and hope to god the other two prescriptions don't run out before then since lordy that's gonna suck ass if the anxiety and ADHD isn't buckled down like the hormones and depression.
Typing has always been a much better way for communication for me + less shame since can't hear my mid-puberty(the 2nd) voice lmao. TFTG always been a good outlet too when I actually have the energy and time for it, or the money to commission it. Been slowly getting art more into my every day life--even just a little so it's less stressful.
Likewise! Thanks for checking in dude, always appreciate seeing ya around in comments/replies/DMs and the art you post. Hope life is going smoother on your end, if not wishing you the best regardless dude.
Typing has always been a much better way for communication for me + less shame since can't hear my mid-puberty(the 2nd) voice lmao. TFTG always been a good outlet too when I actually have the energy and time for it, or the money to commission it. Been slowly getting art more into my every day life--even just a little so it's less stressful.
Likewise! Thanks for checking in dude, always appreciate seeing ya around in comments/replies/DMs and the art you post. Hope life is going smoother on your end, if not wishing you the best regardless dude.
Fuuuck that really is a tough situation to be in, especially playing the waiting game. I been in my own waiting game so I can only imagine,,
HUNDRED PERCENT I feel the same way about typing for communication! I definitely think it's a good outlet since for a long time I've been in an identity crisis myself but being able to draw it out who or what I want to be does help when I have the time for it. It's just a different feeling when you can visualize yourself in a more comfortable shape, form, or anything really! If you ever need something or want something don't be afraid to poke me!
No worries at all, I like to be around for some folks when I can and I'm trying to get better even if things strike me down again and again. Again, only wishing you good things!
HUNDRED PERCENT I feel the same way about typing for communication! I definitely think it's a good outlet since for a long time I've been in an identity crisis myself but being able to draw it out who or what I want to be does help when I have the time for it. It's just a different feeling when you can visualize yourself in a more comfortable shape, form, or anything really! If you ever need something or want something don't be afraid to poke me!
No worries at all, I like to be around for some folks when I can and I'm trying to get better even if things strike me down again and again. Again, only wishing you good things!
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