PLEASE READ CAREFULLY

Hey whats that? Why is it so blurry?

Well I wanna adress something wich is annoing me a little bit.
Since a few years now I uploade different pictures with different artstyles and themes here and there.
I try to post regualry, bring fun and joy and want to enjoy art by myself here. For me, making art and
posting it, talk abut it and see how you react with comments, emotes ..., is kind of my save space, where
I go when I want to relax. So I try to be open, polite and free myself from everything.

Since a few years now I try to improve my art seriously, to be able to maybe make a living out of it in the far future.
Working a 40 hour job far away from family, together with all day problems, politics and the market make it not easy.
The last year was devastating. Stress at work making me sick very often, personal problems, lack of sleep, skips of training,
family problems and finally loosing my job creating a year I want to delete completely from my life. Well I think ship happend from time to time.
All that makes you a passenger in your own existence. Just work, no joy and even the good things feel pointless.

The live of a artist is not easy. Since I finally find some time after loosing my job, I slowly gain back my lust to draw and
to create. Thats why you see me joining the inktober and posting more often. But like I said, I use art to not going crazy.
There´s still a lot to do right now, to regain financial and mental stability and strenght as you can imagine ...

Long talk, I know, BUT what I wanna tell you is: Please stop asking me if or when some projects will/are going on.
Some projects like the "Bad influence" series seem to be quite nice for you. Thats great! I also like it.
But since I understand, on my last convention, that almost noone care about our little bubble here, I decide
I have to make more "normal" art, more coloreful art and more art I can present and sell. To be more successful I need to adress more people,
need to become better in drawing and build up a bigger portfolio. So I spend almost all my energy and cretive time to get better at the first place.
So I try out a lot and I have fun doing it. But the point is and thats totally ok: You spend hours on a drawing, build up a coloreful,
nice to watch galery, in best case making a video too, to proof your work and show development to yourself, you working long nights ... and
finally you nailed it and post it. And then?
Nothing happend. No comment, no clicks, no likes. That´s totally ok. If I don´t like a picture, video or something else I also
say nothing. But when you invest time, sweat, blood and passion in your work and then see the same comment again and again in wich someone
who never seems to leave a comment or donation before asks "When is ´project XY´ going on?", "Is the ´project XY´ ended?", "Can we see more of ´project XY´?"
"Did ´project XY´ is finnished here?" ... when it´s cleary not ... That´s the last thing a artist like me wanna hear. I now noone of you
meant it rude or bad. I just wanna say I will continue non profit projects when I have time, lust and focus. So please stop asking.
Beeing into a project I didnt feel the vibe of, kills the passion. So stuff will go on in a week, in a month, in a year. The galery last year was almost just
linework. I know compare yourself to others is like fucking up yourself - but we all do and having almost no progression while u see others "live there lives"
and rises up ... that sucks.
Prioritys right now are finding a new job, make some minijob cash in the mean time and stay focussed on still open commissions
(Thanks by the way to all clients! Thaks for your pation and understanding!). Learning new skills, become better and faster and step out more of the comfort zone.

Means I wanna make more individual artworks where I can improve my style and try out techniques. Projects will be continued when I want and can.

And one more very important point! When you feel down, alone, overworked, slowed down, heavy, burned out ... you are not alone. Search for help!
Talk to your friends and family or even look for professional help. The world right now is in chaos and even when social media or pretty galerys make it
look like everyone exept you are living there dreams - what you see are just there peak moments. Better times will come. Stay strong and don´t let go.
improvement not perfection - progress not stop

Wonderful - now everyone is pissed or sad, but that´s inside my head and needed to be said. But here´s the good part:
Tomorrow a new "Bad Influence" page will be posted and I work on another one at the moment.

Deal with it - I will drink a giant tea now and watch cat´s doing silly things - PROST