I spent 10 years of my life pining after someone who had me wrapped around their finger so badly, I'm still all twisted up. I'll never get those 10 years back. It all came to a sudden end cause I made a horrible mistake and betrayed him. The last thing he said to me was he forgave me before he ghosted me. I thought that might actually be it for me. I was in such a dark place, I was ready to give up. Instead, I picked myself up, and started going to therapy. It was only then I was able to parse out just how bad this relationship was. I was never actually loved. I was used. My selfish little mistake might've been the best thing I could've done (doesn't make it right of course).

I can never get those 10 years back. I'm old and damaged now. But I'm still here. I found the confidence to finally push myself further that I've been denied for so long. And I'm hoping maybe I can just impart a little wisdom. I'm sure there are so many of you who are in truly loving relationships. But there are others like me. Who have been tricked into thinking that a little bit of affection is true love. So I implore you, look for red flags! You deserve to be loved, truly. We all do.

And Adam, if you happen to be reading this, go fuck yourself. I mean that truly from the bottom of my heart. You've taken my time, my money, and my dignity, but you haven't broken me. Enjoy the hell you've created for yourself, and I hope you step on a Lego brick in the middle of the night.

If you're still here, thanks for listening to my little rant. Have a happy Valentines Day.