I can relate to this. For the most part I don't usually feel a strong emotion to want to draw to express it at this time in my life. Music can still make me feel things, so sometimes a song will give me the drive to draw. Since I use references pretty heavily, then I try to scour the earth for the right references, and a lot of times I spend so much time doing that, that I don't end up drawing... or I am unable to find a reference image that fits, so I don't draw it. If I do draw, a lot of times I just get the sketch done and call it good enough to upload.

I will say though, if I spend time around artists, I think about drawing a lot more and getting feedback from people, or spending time drawing with others, or watching others draw motivates me to draw more than if I am just doing my own thing and being less social or just not socializing with artists much. It is a time suck though, and then I can make myself feel guilty for not doing something more "productive" in other areas of my life during the rare times I do spend time drawing.

I do really like how you painted this and the colors you chose.

Oof, drawing is hard, and not in the actual act of doing it, but everything else that surrounds it. I find watching animation of all kinds helps my desire to draw more. Most of my feelings are kind of under the surface right now and they rear their heads at random times, but none of it translates to "I should draw this" like it used to. But I also know I have come a long way in being able to emotionally regulate and I wonder if I am just no longer "needing" art as a coping mechanism. Which, technically, is great. But it leaves me a little disoriented now days because I am learning how to be creative without emotion involved, since it was just an unintentional intuitive thing I used to have fueling ideas.

And thank you!! I think I am starting to see what is driving things now, and it's basically figuring out how to "paint" things in the way I have always appreciated but was never able to achieve. Not because I lacked the skill, but being motivated by emotion was that impulse to get the piece finished, not to explore different brushes or methods. Now that I am "lost" I am kind of forced to give myself the time to explore all the different avenues instead of feeling driven to complete the image quickly; which had caused me to stick with only what I knew.