Alright everyone, I'm gonna do something I don't do much and pull back the veil a bit for a serious thing...hi, I'm the creator of Azul, Rigel, Arryn, ALMA, and all the original stuff and ideas you see going on here. Been here a long time...have my followers, viewers, and commissionees...and this is a necessary message for all of you...

You may or may not have noticed an absence of mine...whether it be by contact for a commission or missing updates or uploads...and that was due to something that was, unfortunately, beyond my control.
For the past month I have dealt with some...long...tough...traumatizing experiences that have left me drained, lesser, and at times overwhelmed.
I was hit with a critical condition that caused excruciating pain...and was hospitalized. Well...twice...first one didn't even have the hear to admit me---'urgent' my tail heh.

Anyway...I was admitted...evaluated...and went into surgery. It went well, for the most part...but, naturally...complications arose. My body was wracked...and was even more so by the stages of what medical practitioners believe is the right call to make---despite what it could do to you. Suffice to say, I spare the details...partly of privacy but also because of how...upsetting it is to think of, and how much suffering it was to live in the moment.
Then came the rehab...or...well...heh...what they 'call' rehab anyway---physical kind, mind you. Days of being agonizingly slow to even get a blip of improvement (I have improved a lot since the start, admittedly...but still not back to square 1 yet)...and long...long nights of...dreading inaccuracy and malpractice/care...for support to eventually arrive.
It was...the longest...painful...traumatizing experience perhaps of my life. And it was a month...just a month...but it felt like years.
So...in brief, that is why I have been gone. I didn't feel comfortable using public connections to get my messages out to anybody...and, to be fair...I had to focus on at least being able to move about in some kind of recognizable way.

I am still in recovery...but at least I am home. There are a lot of things I have to see to, balance, and heal from...but hopefully I'll be able to do them a lot better, out of those...places.
For my viewers/commenters, whatever it is I have...posting will resume eventually. For my commissionees...I will get back to you when I'm able---I have timings for things to take care of medically as well as normally. I managed to make up this little thing just to get a sense of feeling like I could do something...but rest assured, I do endeavor to finish the work I start.
It's going to be...a long, hard road now...just to get back to a sense of 'normal'...and so I try to trudged forward as best I can---though one must be aware that honest support is not something to take as a wound to pride, I certainly didn't---I'd probably not have endured without it ha ha...

But I digress...so there...the reason for my unexpected absence. But I'm soon trying to return...and hopefully one day, this dragon will learn to fly again......well....walk anyway heh.