[December 2025]
I'm ready to leave 2025 very far behind. It was the worst and loneliest year of my life, from depression to breakup to spending my holidays completely alone for the very first time in a country far away from everyone. I've been through a lot of things, got hurt a lot, lost all hope and will to keep going.

Yet i'm still here. I'll try to change, to see more of the beauty of the world, to listen more not just to nature, but to other people too, and despite my social anxiety, be a good friend who can care. To create and not consume. To care about the human behind the art. To be a decent human being. To be someone who can love and can be loved. To bring something, anything, even a tiny little good to this world.

It's hard but i'll try my best.

I'm going through some tough time right now. Trying to find motivation to keep going, doing whatever i can with my limited energy.
Depression has been fucking me over for more than half my life, but it has never been as bad as this year.

I'll try to change.

I have to.