{VENT with this Vent art}

This is how I been feeling lately. The feeling is slowing down and I've been feeling better, but the anger in me still resides.
Lot of you prolly don't know but I've bottled up so much anger in my past that it will sometimes burst out. I don't ever mean to do this, especially to my friends, but it does happen. Usually when I feel like a friend or two are ignorning me.
Now you might say that "oh he'll rage for now and get over it".
In a sense I do, but that doesn't mean the feeling is completely wiped away. When it comes to things that are of little importance (money, material things or stuff like art) I usually get over it it within an hour or so.

But when it comes to people, especially friends (this excludes very recent friends [ones I met within the past few months]), I retain a bit of bitterness, almost hatred towards them. I just can't help myself. You'd be surprised at the things I could tell you about my past o.o. (trust me....it's not good...)
Thus when I feel a friend ignores me I get all stressed out, and I blurt some things out, or hint at them that I'm pretty angry at that time. Most of the time it's when I use 1-3 word messages. That is when you need to be careful, or ask what may be wrong. Cause it's not good to assume anything about me. I'm definitely not right in the head >.<.

So if you are talking to me or even "rping" with me, try to take some consideration. [As if the warning on my page is not enough it seems -_-; ]
Very old friends of mine know how I act and can usually deal with me, but not always the case.

Also to accurately porttray how my anger and bitterness keeps building up. Think of an iguana, and if you slowly mess with it, it will become very mean to you, to the point where it will try to bite you. Mostly because it feels threatened.

Now add a wolf (which sorta means loyalty to ones friends) to that and you got something close to me.
Constantly struggling not to lose my friends and yet they give me reasons to try and push them away....so as not to hurt them or myself

So just try to understand all right?

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Phew...got that off my chest...