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Bullet [Vent] ~
by Thrasher
🖤 KING OF THE DAMNED🖤
4 days ago
Feeling lost, and a bit broken.
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I've never really belonged anywhere, with anyone, around people...why the fuck am I here. I''m just a 'Guest' in everyones lives, nothing more.
Thing is, all I ever wanted was to feel accepted. So many times i've been rejected and beaten up mentally and physically by people who just use me til i'm no longer relevant.
I was too 'boring', too 'loud'...the bubbly weird little lion with impulse issues where people DID like me was the furry fandom, I found my people. I could escape that world and find myself.
Over the years i've been told i'm just a Guest, nothing more.
I just want someone to look at me and see through to the core of me that just wants to be loved. I often joke i'm like a dog, all I want is a bit of affection, love, play and to feel safety with those around me.
But i'm an ol' fighting dog, with scars, mental scars as well as physical, noone wants a beaten, angry and reactive dog where all they see is the damaged parts. Not the creature inside yearning for some form of love, trust and something real to hold onto.
Just a vent, I guess. Not feeling great today.Thrasher (C)
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I've never really belonged anywhere, with anyone, around people...why the fuck am I here. I''m just a 'Guest' in everyones lives, nothing more.
Thing is, all I ever wanted was to feel accepted. So many times i've been rejected and beaten up mentally and physically by people who just use me til i'm no longer relevant.
I was too 'boring', too 'loud'...the bubbly weird little lion with impulse issues where people DID like me was the furry fandom, I found my people. I could escape that world and find myself.
Over the years i've been told i'm just a Guest, nothing more.
I just want someone to look at me and see through to the core of me that just wants to be loved. I often joke i'm like a dog, all I want is a bit of affection, love, play and to feel safety with those around me.
But i'm an ol' fighting dog, with scars, mental scars as well as physical, noone wants a beaten, angry and reactive dog where all they see is the damaged parts. Not the creature inside yearning for some form of love, trust and something real to hold onto.
Just a vent, I guess. Not feeling great today.Thrasher (C)
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I can relate to feeling like a Guest a bit. I've never really been the main member of a lot of friend groups. Mostly came and vent. I guess on some level, I found comfort in that, I've always been avoidant of getting too tangled up with people, and had this sense that if I was to disappear someday, it wouldn't hurt them as much.
But that is not a good mentality either, and I get the desire to belong somewhere and to feel accepted. Furry has been great for that indeed.
So I fully understand.
But know one thing. I'm here and I'm your friend.
I know we started out on a rocky start.
But since I've gotten to know you I love and trust you.
You'll never be just a guest with me.
I think we'd get along real good in IRL.
I'm a tad loud. And we both love birds.
Hey! I know. Birds are loud we're loud. We're both birds.