"baka/fool/idiot..." would prob be my "farewell word", then again ive always been alone ^^;

I'd like to call him Baka, but I just adore him, so I think he'd be doing the right thing in leaving me and being happy. And Aww, you poor thing.

To be honest i think it's less painful for me than it's for you, i mean sure it's lonely and stuff but being single i wont have to experience the pain of being left either- besides relationships require hard work and time, time i dont have and i really don't like complicated stuff and dramas like jealousy and what else is out there.

I'd rather spend the hard time finding the most suited relationship for me so that i'm sure it'll work out, and as older we get the more prone we're to seek serious and working relationships.

but.. feel it like this instead, if he doesn't want to be with you then you're simply not meant to be- being happy for him or not doesn't really matter the important part for you is that you're moving on to find someone that can actually love you.

I kinda have a a rule as well, if I were to date someone and that person breaks it up with me or I break up with her then that's the end of our communication completely, mostly because I want to be able to move on and let someone else enter my heart and be allowed into that special place only a few should have access to- I would never agree to start seeing eachothers again after having my heart broken and especially not if that person has been seeing others and felt "meh these guys sucks, i want my old one back! <3", because i see that as selfishness at a destructive level, ie that person will leave me again as soon as she finds a better one.

sorry for the long and perhaps harsh text, I'd just like to see getting stronger from this and not being all "whatever is best for him..." because I don't think it's fair.

You're really sweet thank you, I understand your points and some of them I'm not agreeing with too much but most I totally get. Really don't worry about me, I'm gonna be okay, I keep telling people this x3 Sure, it's going to hurt like hell but there is nothing you can do to avoid this kind of thing, when someone doesn't want you, you can't make them want you.. and so on and so forth, but thanks for caring, much appreciated ^.^

you're welcome and ganbarou Elly-chan :3