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I'm resubmitting this image in light of recent, very painful, events. I've known 
athus for about 10 years, 1/3rd of my life. I lived in Tahoe at the time (hence my name) and he lived in Reno, 1.5 hours away. We were the first dragonkin that either of us had met.
Since then, he became the first person I truly fell in love with. The first person I ever developed emotions for. He helped me in so many ways. He literally changed my life, a few times. I'd like to think I had a similar impact on his life as well. We almost became mates a few times even, lol. The stars just never aligned for that to happen though.
This photo was from a trip I took with him to Sequoia National Park (a few months ago we took another trip to Yosemite that I heard he quite enjoyed). I visited him for the first time at the Bad Dragon house this week. I was able to see him again. He died a few days later. I saw him literally the day before. I wish I had been in that car with him. I wish I could have moved-on with him. I wish, at the very least, that I had been in the car so I could have been with him until the final moments >.-.<
I took this photo a year ago to the day when the news of his passing was officially released.
I've lost family before and never cared. I've never lost anything as great as this. It's tearing me apart. I miss him so damn much >.-.<
All the things I wanted to do with him still. All the things I wanted to show him still.
I had to call his mother to give her the news of his death. Unfortunately, she wasn't there and I had to leave a message. That's no way for anyone to be notified of their sons death.
He was the one who finally got me to commit to being a dragonkin. It's been 10 years since then, and I've never been able to figure out what I looked like. I recently decided to make a new push to figure it out. I knew Athus always wanted me to discover what I looked like finally (in the early years it really tortured me). I knew that he had wanted to draw me for many years but couldn't cause he didn't know what I looked like.
Finally, on this trip, I planned to work with
herr_aardy to finally get something locked down. I wanted Athus to know as much as I did, as he has always been as excited as me to know what I looked like, that's just how he was. I am currently working with Aardy on this venture, but it pains me greatly that he won't get to see it >.-.<
Everywhere I look, I see him. Anytime I think, he comes up. I just had my first real meal since his passing on Tuesday because I couldn't stand to eat. I'm always expecting him to pop up and be like "haha! fooled ya!". He's been in my life so long that I can't image life without him.
I don't know how I'm going to move on, I really don't. I just wish I could have come along with him. I always expected to die first anyway. I was the risk taker, I was the fool.
The first time I cried was when I thought about how happy he surely must be now, as a dragon again, flying. I want to be there with him.
I truly feel like I've lost my other half.
athus for about 10 years, 1/3rd of my life. I lived in Tahoe at the time (hence my name) and he lived in Reno, 1.5 hours away. We were the first dragonkin that either of us had met.Since then, he became the first person I truly fell in love with. The first person I ever developed emotions for. He helped me in so many ways. He literally changed my life, a few times. I'd like to think I had a similar impact on his life as well. We almost became mates a few times even, lol. The stars just never aligned for that to happen though.
This photo was from a trip I took with him to Sequoia National Park (a few months ago we took another trip to Yosemite that I heard he quite enjoyed). I visited him for the first time at the Bad Dragon house this week. I was able to see him again. He died a few days later. I saw him literally the day before. I wish I had been in that car with him. I wish I could have moved-on with him. I wish, at the very least, that I had been in the car so I could have been with him until the final moments >.-.<
I took this photo a year ago to the day when the news of his passing was officially released.
I've lost family before and never cared. I've never lost anything as great as this. It's tearing me apart. I miss him so damn much >.-.<
All the things I wanted to do with him still. All the things I wanted to show him still.
I had to call his mother to give her the news of his death. Unfortunately, she wasn't there and I had to leave a message. That's no way for anyone to be notified of their sons death.
He was the one who finally got me to commit to being a dragonkin. It's been 10 years since then, and I've never been able to figure out what I looked like. I recently decided to make a new push to figure it out. I knew Athus always wanted me to discover what I looked like finally (in the early years it really tortured me). I knew that he had wanted to draw me for many years but couldn't cause he didn't know what I looked like.
Finally, on this trip, I planned to work with
herr_aardy to finally get something locked down. I wanted Athus to know as much as I did, as he has always been as excited as me to know what I looked like, that's just how he was. I am currently working with Aardy on this venture, but it pains me greatly that he won't get to see it >.-.<Everywhere I look, I see him. Anytime I think, he comes up. I just had my first real meal since his passing on Tuesday because I couldn't stand to eat. I'm always expecting him to pop up and be like "haha! fooled ya!". He's been in my life so long that I can't image life without him.
I don't know how I'm going to move on, I really don't. I just wish I could have come along with him. I always expected to die first anyway. I was the risk taker, I was the fool.
The first time I cried was when I thought about how happy he surely must be now, as a dragon again, flying. I want to be there with him.
I truly feel like I've lost my other half.
Category Photography / Scenery
Species Western Dragon
Size 1130 x 831px
File Size 1018.5 kB
The thing I can say is to just talk about him with your friends. Reflect on eachothers moments and remember how he lived!
I know it hurts.
You do have friends here that care about you. You have us. I highly recommend on joining us for Brittany's birthday. Come with us no matter how you feel. Remember when we went to the zoo? Remember who he went with? We help save his life. He was looking for reasons to live. And since you allowed him to come with us, it really helped him out alot. He needed us.
I may not be able to fix how you feel. But I do want to remind you that you are alive and now a part of our lives. And I mean that.
You have us ^.^ And we think very highly of you
I know it hurts.
You do have friends here that care about you. You have us. I highly recommend on joining us for Brittany's birthday. Come with us no matter how you feel. Remember when we went to the zoo? Remember who he went with? We help save his life. He was looking for reasons to live. And since you allowed him to come with us, it really helped him out alot. He needed us.
I may not be able to fix how you feel. But I do want to remind you that you are alive and now a part of our lives. And I mean that.
You have us ^.^ And we think very highly of you
Thank you for this picture. Your pain is intense, that much is easily felt in your words. I could not even begin to find the words to try and help ease such a pain but to only say I am so sorry. As long as those closest to him always remember him, then he is never truly gone. Do not be afraid to speak with your friends and loved ones over this as it will greatly help.
I knew Athus from a while ago, but hadn't really talked to him or many people in the fandom in almost a decade. I learned of his passing the other day, and while I'm usually okay with the whole zen impermanence of life and death, I knew how many people he had left a mark on in his life. My alms to you, and everyone else who lost a dear friend, and influential part of their lives. :(
T_T
Its so sad. I started my artworks because of artists like him. He encouraged me by his artwork to gain new skills. I don't know him personally but still cry about this situation. I can't eat, I cry when I think about your situation and I cried all the time when I wrote my message to athus[at]athusnadorian.com
This has an deep impact in my life. I talked to my mother today via Phone and I could not hold back the tears. I just want not to be only not online if I die. I have nobody who could inform the people I know from forums and chats. I fear this. Without this community my life would be much more dark. I enjoy chatting about art stuff and techniques and can't imagine to be without this great inspiring community.
I want to inspire people like he did. I will continue the spark. The spark that starts a new hobby for others. The spark that encourages people to keep going. His spiritual legacy.
I can't imagine how hard this times are for you, his friends and family.
I hope my message to Athus will help you a little bit to take this situation.
Take all the time you need for this.
Its so sad. I started my artworks because of artists like him. He encouraged me by his artwork to gain new skills. I don't know him personally but still cry about this situation. I can't eat, I cry when I think about your situation and I cried all the time when I wrote my message to athus[at]athusnadorian.com
This has an deep impact in my life. I talked to my mother today via Phone and I could not hold back the tears. I just want not to be only not online if I die. I have nobody who could inform the people I know from forums and chats. I fear this. Without this community my life would be much more dark. I enjoy chatting about art stuff and techniques and can't imagine to be without this great inspiring community.
I want to inspire people like he did. I will continue the spark. The spark that starts a new hobby for others. The spark that encourages people to keep going. His spiritual legacy.
I can't imagine how hard this times are for you, his friends and family.
I hope my message to Athus will help you a little bit to take this situation.
Take all the time you need for this.
Your words that you have not only wrote but spoken as well as combined such harmony, speaks to people with so much strength that I am sure that even the bounds of where he is right now has heard them. I never knew the dragon, nor have I gained the chance to speak to him but I know honestly that he will be missed emotionally and physically to so many people. Your work you have posted here have the strength to move attentions and brighten even the most dampest stars in space. So thank you for having the ability in your heart to post such art and words for a person like he was. For I am certain that a person like him won't become like history, his fame will never fade though he may be gone. But it is the people that knew him that will keep him existing forever and ever. Amen.
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