My past is filled with my most painful regrets,

Chances not taken; options above the usual selects,

Dreams I could have fulfilled encompass my nights,

And become beautiful nightmares taunting my emotional sights,

The cold sweat continues as the soul continues to ache,

Always making the same mistakes for failure’s own sake,

The same path leads to the same miserable result,

Leaving success defined as something of the occult,

My mouth is dry as the taste has never been satisfied as such,

Love teases my open arms; then runs from my desperate clutch,

The heart has gone mad as it rings out its sad little song,

And miserably wishes for another voice to sing along,

A bird with both wings mockingly clipped,

My true purpose from my life is barely dripped,

Contained by fear to learn from mistakes once made,

Longing for something to fill the abyss and make the grade,

There is a hole in my heart where love should be,

The elusive little bastard calls my name and tells me to see,

The lightened meadow that promises easier fare,

Right there within my reach if I would just dare,

Light is the darkness most feared for the extinguished candle,

Matches strike again and again but nothing is there to gain a handle,

To cradle love in my hands for the first time in my existence,

If only I wouldn’t give it so much resistance,

The shy and meek are first to be trampled,

When the rest of the world stampedes to find love sampled,

The mates leave with the future to be tried and tested,

And those left in the dust revel in their souls being bested,

We’ve all waited for so long to become just a little strong,

Yet every step that is taken always seems to be in a direction wrong,

If only it would all just go away and disappear,

There wouldn’t be that out-of-reach desire to revere,

For now I will continue this painful goal,

While wishing it wouldn’t devour my weakened soul,

And hoping this pursuit isn’t what is seems,

As all I know how to do is keep chasing my dreams…

-Halifax Haflinger