College has been getting to me.
I'm supposed to be writing an essay, but I just can't.
Too much and too little is on my mind.

---

I’m unable to think
My mind is filled with a thousand thoughts that at once fill it entirely
And at once make it completely empty
I must study, because to study means to become successful
But I cannot think of success
I cannot think
I ate a late meal with some friends
Enjoyed some light socializing, had some laughs
Then they left, and I was all alone again
Alone with my thoughts
Alone with my lack of thoughts
I ambled back to my dormitory in the bitter cold
But turned and took a walk down to the frozen pond
I sat on a frigid swing, and for the first time in a long while
I listened
And heard nothing
That nothingness was my first solace of my day
I remembered something, and looked up
The sky is full of stars tonight
I stood and walked until there were no trees to stop the view
I love this place for the stars in the sky
The stars flicker above me, and the silence surrounds me
The cold embraces me, as though it wishes to be friends
And I stopped thinking
For a moment, my head was clear, and I simply looked
And listened
And I heard nothing
And I saw enough
To find peace
The cold doesn’t bother me now
I know that soon I’ll be warm once more
And that I will find solace in the cold emptiness of the sky once again.
~