my love life seems to have a gap that can never be filled, the world seemed so full of opportunity and chances to succeed, yet i seem to fail at ever turn. Gravity is not the only weight to pull my under the sea of emotion i repress, my flood gates strain under such pressure, as the weight pulls me down my friends toss my a line but i feel so weak i can barely hold on, i know i will survive the coming food but i will not know the damage it will reek.

i get really depressed around this time of year, i try to use art as a release and talk too friends, but the biggest thing tat is getting to me is the lack of someone to hold close as i can feel my self slipping into a figurative minefield of lonely dis-pair. i know i am getting older as the years seem to be flying by, my greatest fear is being alone.

I'm single, straight as far as i can tell, and 28. at this time i hold no fire to push on anymore with trying to find a soul mate, if love wants to hit me with its arrow it better be fricken blunt.