Chapter 22
Carla was taken aback by Dashed’s words, unable to love? What has happened to that poor fox while he was out? Was he beaten severely? Did he die and was unable to wake up? Was he tortured? What happen
“Maybe,” she thought, “I should ask him.”
Dashed broke her thoughts saying, “Hey! You got The Offspring? That’s kick ass!”
As Dashed reached for the album Carla put her hand on his, and squeezed. She said, “I need to ask you, why you can’t love? I must know, we will be there within a few minutes but I need to know why you can’t love anymore.”
Dashed sighed and said, “I was afraid of this, ok I think I know of a way to explain it. Do you have a memory of your parents, siblings or perhaps a past boyfriend that you really loved?”
Carla thought back to her brother, Thomas, him and her sitting on a field when she was six and feeling like that’s what life and happiness peaks at, she nodded.
“Great, now you know if you have an apple, every day or every meal you start to hate apples for awhile?”
Carla nodded, the same thing happened with her and tuna, she can’t eat it till this day…not that she’s eaten any after the Disaster.
“Well while being surrounded by constant love, I just can’t give out any more love, I can’t love until I discover the hate and the anger behind all these false memories. I need to experience what I truly need: suffering. Think about it, the reason we are going to Canada is because we suffer here, the reason we started to walk is because we were cold, wet, and hungry all the time. It is sentient nature to want suffering and to overcome it. That’s why I can’t love, not because I experienced too much hate and anger and pain, but because I wasn’t exposed to any.”
Carla nodded, she thinks she understands now, she asked, “So that what happened? You were on love overload, you just couldn’t take love anymore?”
“Ya, basically, but it’s not love in of itself that I can’t do anymore it’s more of the fact that I can’t do things that makes you love someone, such as kissing, or talking about feelings, or anything, not even sex!”
Carla said, “So basically you can’t love anymore because you had too much sex?”
“What? NO! that’s not what I mean…”
“Dashed relax, I was joking. So I do have a question, what woke you up, just in case something really big is happening.”
“Well it was the cold that woke me up, so if the house is on fire just dump my ass into the snow or something.”
“I’ll keep that in mind,” She looked up and was able to see the road to the family house through the three inches of snow.
She smiled and said, “It looks like where here, I didn’t pack much because we always had supplies here…I guess you could use my cousin’s cloths for now, he was about your height and I don’t think he would, or can for that matter, mind. Dashed thanked her and his jaw gaped open at the sight of the house, it was as big as a mansion! There was three stories tall and it had at least twelve rooms! He asked, “Just how rich is your family?’
Carla got out of the car and smiled, “Most of this was my granddad, turns out that he was a financial genius when it came to stocks, he turned $10,000 into $500,000 in just a few years. So we have grampa Madish to thank.”
She went to the trunk, pulled out her shotgun, ammo, and a not small amount of pill bottles. Dashed looked over and said, “What are those for?”
Carla said, “Don’t worry, they’re just to there to make sure you go to sleep faster and calmer, it’s nothing serious.”
Dashed nodded and picked up a camera and a large thing of water and the heater that kept it from melting. Carla walked towards the door and unlocked it, she winked at dashed and stepped into the freezing house and surveyed the damage. She noticed it wasn’t too bad, nothing was damaged beyond and repair, although none of the pipes are going to work anymore, and the third floor is going to hurt how much heat they’ll have, Carla sighed, there was going to be a lot of insulating to do. She set the box down and went to the basement to check on what they had, as she walked down she heard dashed drop the water and go into the bottom living room. She smiled both at the thought of Dashed and the amount of food and luxury drinks. Hash browns, hot chocolate, canned peas, powdered milk, beef jerky, sugar, flour, spices, spam, goldfish, chips, snack cakes, canned beans, canned fruit, juice concentrate, lemonade powder, and much much more. She rushed up to tell dashed, she stopped dead when she saw him, laying down on the couch, eyes closed and in a position she had seen for far too long. She knew he was gone, and she could only wish that he will return soon. She walked over to him, kissed him on his lips, and fell asleep on his chest, wishing for his return soon.


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