it has been some time already since everything started back... but can't avoid the need to be a bit away to relax a bit. Got some of the things I like to have in a break, some cheese, bread and a kind of sweet wine. it is too dark here, but thankfully the fire is done and ready to warm at this cool night surrounded of nothing more than hills, valleys and trees in the darkness.

I feel a bit blank. Sometimes I think it is better to feel this way ... but then again this pain inside my heart comes... good thing to try to ignore it... especially at this calm night. still hard.. but let's ignore it...Still Hard!!! ..But goodness Aggggh!!!! *roars and then calms down as he gets comfortable supported by a stone and the warm fire*

remoiving my boots after long days of work, I realized how I miss to have these pawsies loved... It is a great feeling.... but how to trust this to someone? hmmm ....what to do? *sighs*


Anyway, why to feel sad now? We can at least dream and enjoy what cannot be enjoyed maybe with the hope toi enjoy it lovingly one day... but first... I want to get better and to be ready to fight <3