The afternoon sun woke me up today, thin strips of warm light spread across the bed we'd shared last night. Honestly, it's a surprise I slept at all, I can still feel you in me - there was nothing romantic about you and I last night. But you're gone now. I cracked an eye open to find your half empty; and your pillow long washed from the warmth that was yours.
So I suppose you're gone again; and I laugh at the question in my mind - 'when did you leave?'. You left me long ago, Love. I think I can pinpoint when it was; the time I asked you what was on your mind and you looked at me long and hard; and then you laughed in that warm way that made my knees weak. But then again, maybe you were never here to begin with.
I'm not surprised, really - you were distant. Last night I fooled myself; when you came to me with the words I loved and the whispered promises I knew you wouldn't keep; that maybe you had come back, that you would stay. Did you know that I loved you? It was much more than physical and I wonder if the feeling was mutual. You didn't hate, I know. You were sweet but not gentle and loving but careless; so contradictory I wondered if it were only I that could love you.
I used my elbows to hold myself up, glancing towards the door that I thought i'd heard slam - but it may have been my imagination or a dream; like the kiss I feel lingering on my lips. A thankyou? A goodbye? Only time will tell if you will return to me, and I wait to feel tears that I already know won't come and think to myself how I know that you won't.

I don't know if i'll miss you; because I can't say whether you were here to begin with; but i'll wait if you want me to...

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Hm~ I started this picture maybe a couple months ago and got distracted ^^; Sorry~ But I dug it out and forced myself to finnish, though it's a little sloppy in places i'm sure you can see haha.

The writing above is just what was going over in my mind while I drew this but I couldn't really get it down properly, so I just splurged what I could remember -shrug- (you can probably tell I don't write that much)

I may eventually scrap / re-do this one day

Anyway, sorry for the large gap in updates - i'll try post more often~ ^^