I had a really bad fucking day and I just....gah. I just spent a half hour crying because I feel like such a pathetic waste and I had so much shit happen today.

I had to go start a painting job today (not a real job, of course, just someone paying me to paint something for them) and of course, it didn't start out that badly...Went with the client to go get the paint and stuff. Then her daughter comes home from kindergarten and this woman makes us all lunch. Of course, after I'm nearly done drinking my soda, a bee flew into my face and I gasped with a mouthful of soda, started choking, and threw up on the lady's patio. Fantastic. Luckily, it was only soda I threw up.

A little while later, after I'm done priming what she wanted me to paint for her, I set my phone on the picnic table and about five minutes later hear a loud thud. Her kid fucking pushed my already fucked up phone onto the concrete ground. Okay. Whatever.

I finish for the day, go home, and find that my dachshund has a HUGE puncture in his face from my mom's dachshund. My dad's dog proceeds to run over my bare foot and cut it up to shit with his nails.

My dad picks me and my sisters up to go to the store and proceeds to tell me he has a doctor's appointment, my mom won't be home, and my youngest sister has a half day on Thursday after for about two weeks I've been telling them I have plans. Well, not anymore.

I get a notice my bank is going to be charging $7 a month for a checking account and that if I order my Ronald Knox cosplay now, it won't get here in time for AnimeNEXT, nor will I be able to color the wig I'm buying correctly.

And my sisters dog grabbed me by the hand when I tried putting him in the crate, so when I scruffed him to put him in, my youngest sister (not her dog) starts punching me and won't stop. WHILE MY PARENTS ARE RIGHT THERE. They do nothing. And finally when I go back at her, I get screamed at.

So then I sat on my bed and cried into my stuffed Fennec Fox Sebastian's fur.

I'm....so fucking stressed lately. I've been getting chest pains and I've been so fucking depressed....I just want something good to happen for once.