well here comes a rant...

my grand father another one i cared for the only other one i had died today of what i call my family curse..cancer..runs in my family..and ive lost 2 grand fathers to it..as if that wasnt bad enogh my fish died today aswell..so yea a figh omg wahh...w.e...and my mates grand father is in the hospital now casue he needs to have heart surgiry after having a 3rd of his fooot taken off after infction..his heart is weak and idk if hes gonna live but im hoping i dont want my mate to lose the only real person he grew up and raised him as if he was a father..i cant be there for him and i feel bad caseu im weak right now and he wont talk to me..so i dont know what too do i want o make myself bleed but..i cant do that..i love you guys...
sorry for the rant...