This is my first story to post here, and it shares some deep feelings. I hope you all like it! If you don't like it, please keep your comments to yourself. I'm not in the mood to deal with jerks.



Her heart breaks for the one she wants to be with. Her heart bleeds with the pain she feels when she thinks of him, and the love she wishes she can share with him. She cries on the inside as she watches as he seemingly pulls away from her. Is there anything she can do so that things don’t turn out bad? Is she the one doing the pushing, by her actions alone?
Her eyes close and she can only think of the hurt, and the love she wants to feel instead. She holds back the tears that beg to be shed, having to stay strong for those around her. She can’t show her true emotions for fear of what it may cause. Questions bound through her head, the one that pops up the most being, Does he love me?
She loves him more than he can ever know, and she knows that feelings are shared, but does he love her like she loves him? Was the attachment worth the pain she will feel in the end, when he is gone? For the pain she will feel will be strong. But the love will always be there, no matter the distance between them.
She knows he must leave, but she doesn’t want him to. She wishes there was something she could do to get him to stay, to be with her. But she knows it will never be. Her heart cries out in pain with the thought of it. Why must she put herself through so much when she doesn’t even know if he feels the same? If he even loves her or not?
Sleep is lost over what she feels. She knows what must be, and why, but her heart doesn’t want to accept it. How many times has she held back the tears when she thinks of him leaving? How many times has she just wanted to hold him tight and never let go? All she wants is to be close to him, but he seems to be pushing her away. She tries to hide the pain she feels, and ends up pushing him away as well.
When will this vicious cycle end? Will she ever come clean and tell him how she truly feels about him? Or will she keep it held inside for only herself to see, and feel? Will she ever know how he feels? Would she ever feel she could ask him to stay for her, or would her feelings that that would be too selfish of her stop her from doing what she really wants?