As you can see when I wrote these back on February of 2004 I was extremely lonely and depressed. :/

I Am the Damned

Many times I have fallen in love,
Yet I did not say a word.
Am I hated above?
I was made absurd.

I wish I have the courage to say
I love you to all eternity.
To the love I find may
Be loved with all certainty.

Without love I am not alive.
My soul be not plain.
Loneliness is kept to my brain to drive.
`Til my soul is calm I am not sane.

I am the damned of many souls,
Which my life my soul tolls.

I Yearn for Love

I yearn for love,
I yearn for happiness.
I dismiss the dove
And all its meaningfulness.

I was born in pain,
Chaos, and destruction.
For love my soul shall strain,
For I have lived in obstruction.

Hate me if you must,
For hatred is all I know.
Love I wish I could trust,
But true love I never know.

I have often been hated
For my creativity.
My very existence has been debated
Without any certainty.

Where is my heart?
Have I ever lived in full?
Can I find a love who'll never part?
Am I a knave? Am I a fool?

My questions may have no answers,
As life is full of cancers.