Vagabond Dreamer

I walk alone on a empty street,
talking the the voices you cant see,
Chaos set its deep inside me,
Stand there looking at my feet.

I became something I hate,
But is it to late?
Cant I break the chains of fate?
I'll make it a date.

I break the chains,
shed the chaos,
I fight the pains,
I still feel lost.

Chaos tries to take hold,
I'm wont fall back,
It wont act so bold,
I wont fade to black.

I'm not going back to the place,
Back to that hell,
where darkness has a face,
In that bottomless hell.

You see me as if I'm hurting you,
But I couldn’t get my point across,
The emotions I had for you are true,
But now I knew all I did was make myself lost.

I miss you when I sleep at night,
I hope one day we would reunite,
But fate is a cruel mistress,
And all she did was leave me with a list.

First do is find a job,
I'm really trying hard,
I keep on stepping and checking my path,
But the stones keep sinking as I pick my paths.

Sicking down I fall below,
having to dance toe to toe,
with the horrors of my own brew,
To fight the shades that wanted to hurt you.

I'm not that man or that kid you knew,
I'm a new guy who misses you,
I let the chaos get a hold of me,
But now cant you see?

I'm past that stage of depression,
I get the urge but I cant have them,
I've got to keep myself up,
Challenge myself and never give up.

I cant run,
and I cant hide,
I got to step into the morning sun,
I got to keep up and stand aside.

I do what I can,
I try at least,
I wanted to give you everything,
But you could accept it.

Now I roam the land every day and night,
Looking for adventure and a brand new fight,
I want to prove to you that I'm different,
only if you'd look at me to see that I'm different.

So now I wander and now I roam,
Looking a place to call my home,
I'll dance in the rain to forget the pain,
and I'll find what I wanted to gain.

I want a place to call my own,
A place where I never have to roam,
A place that I can call home,
A place where we'll never have to roam.

I know its to much to ask,
But am I stuck In a dream?
Can we forget the bad?
Will you forgive this thing I am?

I pull myself out the water and keep on walking,
Keep on talking,
Talking to those who want to help me through this time,
They help me understand what has happened all this time.

Some are negative,
others positive,
I don’t give a shit,
I'm not having a fit.

I'm trying my hardest as you don’t see,
I'm not gonna flee,
I'm not gonna hide,
I'm not gonna try for a free ride.

I walk among the dark with a lantern powered by will,
I'll let it get its fill,
And I use it to kill the things in the chaos,
I'll lit my path so I wont get lost.

Step two is what I want to most,
Get out of this place and become a ghost,
Not fall back into a state of depression,
I'm not gonna fall into recession.

I'm gonna work this right,
I'll put up the fight,
I'll set things right,
I'll put up the fight.

I miss you all the time,
But I know I'm not worth the time,
I'll keep on working for my sake,
I don’t want to fall back into that dark lake.