
Vent.
I've been feeling super alone lately... and have been for a while, actually...
Both friend-wise and romantic-wise.
Sure, I have a bunch of friends I can talk to online. There's no problem with that. But when it comes to going to see someone... that's another story.
Most of my best friends are either way too far away (states or countries away), or are busy...
At the moment I'm trying my best to make friends while in class. So far it's hard, seeing as I'm really shy.
I guess the big kicker for me is romance-wise.
I crave to be with someone... for them to actually be in my state. Those I have crushes on don't live close to me at all... so I fear it getting serious at all will result in me becoming depressed again, because of them being so far away.
Then seeing couple icons on here, or just love art/photos of the actual persons hits me even more.
Sure, at times it doesn't bother me at all... but other times it really comes at me hard. Very hard. It's hard to control. It's hard to not think about.
Then, last night,my dreams seemed to make it worse... I became even more lonely, or I was attacked, or I watched something die.
I'm vulnerable.
So, this is my attempt to just let these feelings out.
It helped a little, at least...
I've been feeling super alone lately... and have been for a while, actually...
Both friend-wise and romantic-wise.
Sure, I have a bunch of friends I can talk to online. There's no problem with that. But when it comes to going to see someone... that's another story.
Most of my best friends are either way too far away (states or countries away), or are busy...
At the moment I'm trying my best to make friends while in class. So far it's hard, seeing as I'm really shy.
I guess the big kicker for me is romance-wise.
I crave to be with someone... for them to actually be in my state. Those I have crushes on don't live close to me at all... so I fear it getting serious at all will result in me becoming depressed again, because of them being so far away.
Then seeing couple icons on here, or just love art/photos of the actual persons hits me even more.
Sure, at times it doesn't bother me at all... but other times it really comes at me hard. Very hard. It's hard to control. It's hard to not think about.
Then, last night,my dreams seemed to make it worse... I became even more lonely, or I was attacked, or I watched something die.
I'm vulnerable.
So, this is my attempt to just let these feelings out.
It helped a little, at least...
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Don't cry little bat. Know how you feel bout making new friends in class - same here about being shy. But be natural, help people when they need it and it will evolve itself.
I crave to be with someone
Welcome to the club. Oh well - they say that love will find a way.
*hugs*
Stay safe
I crave to be with someone
Welcome to the club. Oh well - they say that love will find a way.
*hugs*
Stay safe
I understand where your coming from, though I have lost my loved one as she could no longer handle the distance ;^;
What you must do is find solace in knowing that who ever you have now as a loved one, or who ever you may find in the future, that you have them and they are not going to run off with someone else.
I was happy and content in knowing my loved one honestly loved and cared for me, knowing she wasn't going to leave me for someone else. So the distance didn't hurt me much because I knew I would see her again and she would be there. But she needed me there with her and due to an unfortunate turn of events I was unable to move out there with her, so to stop causing her more pain and anguish we broke off our relationship which shattered my heart and I'm still recovering.
As for friends I can not say much, I've disconnected myself or am trying to from the social fandom as it was causing me the pain you are experiencing now. Sadly we both live in a state (Minnesota) where furries are an endangered population and most people here, or at least where I'm living, are pretty timid and less exciting than the friends I've made in the fandom.
-hugs- I truly hope you figure out what will be best for you in this situation, because it varies from person to person and sometimes it just takes a little time before it gets better <:3
What you must do is find solace in knowing that who ever you have now as a loved one, or who ever you may find in the future, that you have them and they are not going to run off with someone else.
I was happy and content in knowing my loved one honestly loved and cared for me, knowing she wasn't going to leave me for someone else. So the distance didn't hurt me much because I knew I would see her again and she would be there. But she needed me there with her and due to an unfortunate turn of events I was unable to move out there with her, so to stop causing her more pain and anguish we broke off our relationship which shattered my heart and I'm still recovering.
As for friends I can not say much, I've disconnected myself or am trying to from the social fandom as it was causing me the pain you are experiencing now. Sadly we both live in a state (Minnesota) where furries are an endangered population and most people here, or at least where I'm living, are pretty timid and less exciting than the friends I've made in the fandom.
-hugs- I truly hope you figure out what will be best for you in this situation, because it varies from person to person and sometimes it just takes a little time before it gets better <:3
I'm sorry that you're going through this shorty. But you seem like a great and talented gal and I'm sure people in your class would love to become friends with you! And the same goes with finding a guy (or gal). Just try to be patient. And I know it's nowhere near the same thing as human contact but you have so many friends here and elsewhere online who all care about you and will be more than happy to talk to you and help you through this! :)
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