Based on Cursed 1 - Shadows of my heart (Chapter 17)
Kitsune Bothan just woke up, and discovered that she's alone, as always... Arès seems to left her a few minutes just before, his place is still warm... Even if it didn't bother her a lot a few months ago, those last days a lot of things had changed for her...
She has a primary goal, to insure humanbeing against destruction, and she believes that she has to stop the Alphas to crush them... But Aesir - the male Alpha - seems to be reincarnated into Arès' corpse, and...
... and for no reason, she deeply fall in love even if she hardly tried not to love Fox Arès, the very same one she has to kill for insure humanbeing a decent life...

She may have not to kill him after all, Arès seems to keep Aesir out of the control of his body...
But he's dying slowly...
Having an Alpha reincarneted in your body is quite too much for a simple human, like a cancer...
She loves him, but he'll die in less than a year...
What could she do? To make his life short, in order to reduce his sufferings? Or to watch him dying slowly, without doing anything? Quite a hard dilemma...
If she waits too long, Aesir could take the control of Arès body when Fox will not be able to keep him under control... And then, she'll have to kill her lover...
She's alone, and she's condamned to be alone for eternity... The only thing she could do at this moment is to lightly and slowly smell his blanket. Arès' parfum is still here... She cries finally...
What will she become, without him...

Il n'est pas simple d'être la dernière arme biologique de type Kitsune. Quasie-immortelle, Bothan est condamnée à voir ceux qu'elle aime mourir, et leur survivre. Combien de compagnons a t'elle vu mourir lorsqu'elle était grande capitaine?

L'homme qu'elle aime est condamné à mourir prématurément, elle le sait que trop bien.
Elle ne sait pour autant ce qu'elle doit faire.
Doit-elle abréger ses souffrances?
Doit-elle le regarder mourir lentement sous ses yeux?
Doit-elle craindre la venue de l'Alpha Aesir lorsque son hôte ne sera plus capable de le contenir? Devra t'elle alors le tuer?
Plus elle y pense, et plus elle est amèrement convaincue qu'elle devra un jour porter la main sur son bien-aimée, pour le bien de ceux qui l'ont si longtemps méprisé... Aura t-elle alors la force de pouvoir accomplir le dernier ordre de sa soeur Daji?
Et surtout, surtout... Saura t'elle rester saine d'esprit après cette ultime tragédie?
Le doute est bien trop grand pour quelqu'un qui s'est ouvert à l'amour dernièrement... Comment pouvait-elle retenir plus longtemps ses larmes? Tout ce qu'elle pouvait faire, dans ce lit déserté par l'homme qu'elle aimait, était de se perdre dans ses ultimes souvenirs où ils étaient encore ensemble, humant son parfum sur cette vieille couverture qu'il affectionnait tant...

Réalisé le 5 Mai 2007, à l'aquarelle sur papier kraft brun clair.
Tiré de Cursed I, chapitre 17, l'ombre de mon coeur.

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Since I have just lined a pic with the same background, I think that's adequate to submit it again, despite you certainly don't remember anything about the previous chapters. Will be updated soon.

Realised with Black ball-points, black markers, the 20th March 2007.
Colored with watercolors, the 5th May 2007.