i have the same want with my dorm too, and it's only been 3 weeks.

i miss people dearly and want to be with them too.

i'm worried that i'll become a chain smoker and ruin my teeth and lungs.

i share some of your worries and i know that it just takes time and patience to work through some of them.

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i love the lines on this drawing though. <3 especially the elbow and back the face is p beastly too~

I just don't feel comfortable here, it's not my home, I can never unwind.
Where are you going to school if you don't mind me asking?

The strangest thing about drawing is that my more interesting pieces come from when I don't expect them to look good.
Hm

hahahhh i completely understand that.

i'm going to Portland State U in downtown Portland.


see: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8959994/ done as a stress-reliving or vent art. i didn't expect people to like it at all, it's way different from most of my stuff.

Im sorry sweetie i hope things will improve. Atleast ill be getting to see you this weekend!
And this is beautiful btw

well this here's a really good pic, so well done

I can relate on the friends thing U^U you know i'm pretty shut-in and shy and often i feel like my friends don't care for me or are only acting nice as a courtesy, OR will drop me for someone else at the drop of a hat. It's a paranoia thing that takes a LOT to work through, I often just try to talk openly with all of you and it allays my fears some. Sometimes seeing that you're not alone helps
idk if you wish to talk i am here =u=
experience has shown me that often old friends miss you dearly as often as you do, even though i've fretted and cried the results have not been bad
we love you >3<

Dude, just so you know-- our friendship is not taxed on this side <3 We understand life happens-- hell, it is for us too <3

Just know that Momma Buhr and Daddy Donk love and miss you; that boy of yours too <3

This too shall pass. Its easy to start worrying about stuff, and worry tends to feed worry. Friends will love you whether you get to talk much or not, they probably miss you a bunch too.

One of the profs over here in the illustration department had some good words, "You are all here to learn, thats great, and the only way you'll learn is by doing, and by falling flat on your face. This is school, this is where you experiment and push and form ideas on work, where miserable failures occur and you build up something. If you come to class and feel great about where you are and are at the top of your game, then get out, because it means you've lost the desire for growth, you've peaked before you ever learned, you dont possess the uncertainties that drive you to try new things. I wont ask that you make the finest works in the field, I will ask that you try hard. Put in the work no matter how uncertain you are, and grow from that labor. Now lets get to down to business"

You can do it, just keep putting the feet forward, we all know this but sometimes need a little reminding, art is hard, anyone who says otherwise is lying. But nobody throws themselves into this crazy world of creativity because they thought it was going to be easy, its because we are all passionate about it. Take care bud

I'm so sorry- I have very little in way of advice, but you have my full emotional support...
I would just like to say, push through it as best you can, things will always get better. Remember that at some point, you will find yourself in a place when you're comfortable with your life, even though that's not now. Keep thinking positively and positive things will happen. Take good care, much love<3

Aww babby. No sads! Okay? ;; I wish I was less busy so we could chat more. And that sucks with the dorms! That's kinda what I'm scared about with having roommates in the future-making it an uncomfortable living space. :T I'm sorry it's like so! It must be frustrating to not really get piece at you "home" spot.

I really dig this piece though.

I don't really have much advice, just encouragement that I know you'll get through this stormy part of life! You're a beautiful person and a great illustrator (this pic alone is enough to prove that), and as for friendships, they're like flowers, cliche as it sounds--you gotta pay attention to them and nurture them periodically or they can't survive! There are people out there (like me, and I wish I wasn't like this and need to make more of a conscious effort NOT to be) that truly enjoy the friendships they have but tend to be forgetful about starting up conversation or lackadaisical about making plans to hang out, and let their other friends take care of it. Just remember it doesn't mean they don't want your company or enjoy having you as a friend, you might just have to work a little at getting them to chat or hang out unfortunately. On hookah, try and ease off a little maybe--shit's not good for you and can be addictive so don't put yourself in that place if you can help it, especially if you have an addictive personality. Dude you are awesome, hope you feel better soon!