I can't say anything regarding God, hell, and anything like that that you probably want to hear, so on that I'll keep my mouth shut.

You already know I feel like I have breaks I don't deserve while my friends don't have breaks they deserve, so that's how I feel about anything related to "brat" comments.

It's not wrong to want to be comforted when something bad happens to you, as long as you help yourself.

Your brother will get his.

I could go on.

I'll first thank you for not dragging up the issue of religion. Everything else... I'll save for one-on-one chat, if at all.

I'll always treat you with kindness and love, because I know that you deserve to be treated with kindness and love. I can't make many more comments on what you've said here but I've said it before and I'll say it again.

You.

Are.

Worth.

It.

I deliberately refuse to fave this because self-depreciation is the fastest way to talking yourself into things you shouldn't do.

I did this not as a knock against myself. I did it because I want to accept my problems, so that I can face them head-on to make my life better.

hmm.. well admitting the problem is the first step.

Consolation is a blind from the truth.
When it comes down to it, realise what you feel, catagorize it if necissary.
Considering it seems an inferiority complex, or rejection. Maybe the typical "unimportance" realisation that dawns on all teens, accept truths but try to move past them anyways.
Though It's never my place to talk of religion, thats most definately in this senario why you feel the way you do.
See: "I'm going to hell because I'm bisexual."
If you are at all like me, dating a female who doesn't care that you're Bi,
Then in all honesty you're most likely loving her for the acceptance, and I'm gunna give it a good 50% chance you're actually gay.
This whole godfear thing, well, it must've gotten to everyone else in your family, so you must be afraid that if you tell them anything about your sexuality you're boned.
(Btw, if you're masturbating its a sin, oh no. Masturbation is the same thing as an atraction to men, if they didn't explain that. Whatever murder you believe your committing is sadly rediculous.)

I'm sorry if I sound harsh, but you look like a smart guy so I'm sure you'll grasp at least some of this.
You know the guidelines well, gaining sympathy because something bad happened,
Calling those bad things in advance, making sure they follow through - Just to feel smart.
If you know the problem, then you can solve it.
It's a simple thing, you just cut that out of whom you are.
(Also note that Who you are, is what you display. Whats on the inside doesn't count if you don't show it.)

But wrapping this up and getting around to my own agenda,
Stop hating yourself for the whole "I like guys" thing,
If you're at all a progressive person, you'll figure out what your not doing wrong, what everyone around you is doing wrong, accept what will come of there dumbassery, and move on.
It's just an unfortunate life situation.

I guess the first thing to reply with is that the "50% chance I'm gay" thing isn't even close. Thinking on what I'm like, if I were to like ONLY men or ONLY women, I'm more likely to go straight. But I do understand where you're coming from there. And no, my family isn't all that religious... in truth, it's a friend of mine that's the reason for the God-fear-ing-ness... he means well, but he goes too far with his talks on religion. Or at least his own scope on religion.

Considering I was off by a longshot,
My apologies.
But how anyone could befriend someone heavily pushing on the whole godfear subject is a bit beyond me o ,o;;
Then again, Im equally as pushy on anti-religion.

He's from the American "Bible Belt" and was raised in a religious family, plus as found himself clinging to his faith since he was diagnosed with leukemia. I understand why he's so... "into" Christianity, and I know he has what he believes to be the best intentions in mind, but the sad truth... he's very oblivious, and I love him like a brother. Christianity teaches forgiveness, and that's what I give him.

You sir, are a far bolder man than I.