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I'm restarting my autobiography comic. I'm gonna try to make this as consistent as i can. I'm also gonna try to keep this level of detail with it too.
I mainly wanted to do this because I wanna make this a projection of how my progress in my therapy will go as well as day to day emotions or big events that happen in my life. I'm also hoping these will kinda help others who are seeking someone to relate to, because it sucks being alone in some of that stuff.
anyway, first day of therapy was rough. it was mostly the therapist asking why i was there and seeking help and talking about things in my past that were traumatic and painful. Just dumping my skeletons at this random persons feet. Though i'm hoping to get more acquainted with them, it's hard, especially with someone new, whom i've never met before. It's especially hard when you've been judged by peers, friends, and random people in the past and have a fear of being pushed away and judged again. Though I know this person is not there to do so and is only there to help, so that helps majorly. It's just, bringing those painful memories(some i haven't revealed to her yet, but should), re opens wounds and I have only had myself to bandage them in the past.
All I can say is that it's a very overwhelming experience at first and a very exhausting one as well. I was panicking and extremely anxious, shaking in the chair depending on the subjects. Just tiring to keep myself from not having my emotions take over and breaking down in front of them. Though I think not sleeping(being too anxious to sleep) also helped keep me solid.
but yeah.
also my crappy car drawing of my honda accord.
I mainly wanted to do this because I wanna make this a projection of how my progress in my therapy will go as well as day to day emotions or big events that happen in my life. I'm also hoping these will kinda help others who are seeking someone to relate to, because it sucks being alone in some of that stuff.
anyway, first day of therapy was rough. it was mostly the therapist asking why i was there and seeking help and talking about things in my past that were traumatic and painful. Just dumping my skeletons at this random persons feet. Though i'm hoping to get more acquainted with them, it's hard, especially with someone new, whom i've never met before. It's especially hard when you've been judged by peers, friends, and random people in the past and have a fear of being pushed away and judged again. Though I know this person is not there to do so and is only there to help, so that helps majorly. It's just, bringing those painful memories(some i haven't revealed to her yet, but should), re opens wounds and I have only had myself to bandage them in the past.
All I can say is that it's a very overwhelming experience at first and a very exhausting one as well. I was panicking and extremely anxious, shaking in the chair depending on the subjects. Just tiring to keep myself from not having my emotions take over and breaking down in front of them. Though I think not sleeping(being too anxious to sleep) also helped keep me solid.
but yeah.
also my crappy car drawing of my honda accord.
Category Artwork (Traditional) / Comics
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I look forward to seeing more of these.... I know how it is starting therapy for the first time, and I tip my hat to you, I for the life of me cant stick with it. I for for maybe 4 visits and once they start to know me they wanna try to open me up more to my past, and I freak and never go back :c
re: therapy
(first off disclaimer: i've personally had awful experiences with shrinks so i have even worse trouble than most trusting them)
back in highschool i was being made to see a therapist by the school (it was a boarding school, and a whole long THING leading up to it) but i distinctly remember every visit feeling worse than when i'd gone in after i left. i don't know if that's a typical response but yeah. i feel you there. :\
(first off disclaimer: i've personally had awful experiences with shrinks so i have even worse trouble than most trusting them)
back in highschool i was being made to see a therapist by the school (it was a boarding school, and a whole long THING leading up to it) but i distinctly remember every visit feeling worse than when i'd gone in after i left. i don't know if that's a typical response but yeah. i feel you there. :\
It was always that way, too, and I was left with a smaller wallet in the past. Walking out feeling a whole lot crapper than when I went in :\. I'm giving it another go-again and I kinda hope this lady is promising.
School made me see the school shrink once a week after the whole school-shooting thing became a.. thing. Because you know, the dorky kid obsessed with talking heroic jet driving anthro cats (SWAT Kats) and had some thing of a hero-save the world-in his stories was totally going to shoot his peers.
School made me see the school shrink once a week after the whole school-shooting thing became a.. thing. Because you know, the dorky kid obsessed with talking heroic jet driving anthro cats (SWAT Kats) and had some thing of a hero-save the world-in his stories was totally going to shoot his peers.
well those two groups of kids had just started in the trenchcoat phase. i mean let's face it everyone goes through a duster/trench phase, it's just a natural part of discovering yourself as a teenager to think long billowing coats are badass.
it was just unfortunate that their phase coincided with the infamous 'trenchcoat mafia' scare.
it was just unfortunate that their phase coincided with the infamous 'trenchcoat mafia' scare.
Hey, yeah, as I said in my comment to not-fun. Seeing a new shrink again, and I kind hope this lady helps. Its a crappy crap shitty ugh damn nasty ass thing to just.. have to deal with.. I mean I'm sure you know what I mean. I hate talking about a lot of bits about my past, one deal and layer after another. And you don't know if this person is just playing nice or real or if its the stupid voices in your head. And I'm not seeing her for anything other than to get the tools to work on myself, it's not about making my folks shut up, or getting a letter for T or surgery or whatever. I got those. This is just for me and the storm inside me... rambling babble junk.. I just, eh, I feel for you here. Far afar, if that means anything. We can have mocha lattes together and doodle grunge animal people and hopefully shut brains off.
Brave of you for doing this, as cliché as that sounds. And posting about it and sharing it with us.
Brave of you for doing this, as cliché as that sounds. And posting about it and sharing it with us.
I just got a strange idea.
I want to try and ink this. But I can't do it digitally, seeing as my ink is traditional.
Well bugger it I'm just going to print it off on some cardstock and see what I can do anyways. I don't know but suddenly I feel like finding all my calligraphy pens because... well I don't know I think it'd really fit the tone of this comic.
Anyhow. Tangents.
In regards to the comic, it really is perfect. A few things could be cleaned up line wise, but most of that is just the sketchy style.
What you really did was create a sense of mood in this page. Just that tired, "I really hope this works" kinda stage when you're getting treatment for these kinds of things. The point about getting coffee and then falling weary on the bed afterwards was poignant as well.
Keep this going. I'd like to see more. ^_^
also i was really excited to see the honda accord in this comic for some reason XD sketchy car is best car.
I want to try and ink this. But I can't do it digitally, seeing as my ink is traditional.
Well bugger it I'm just going to print it off on some cardstock and see what I can do anyways. I don't know but suddenly I feel like finding all my calligraphy pens because... well I don't know I think it'd really fit the tone of this comic.
Anyhow. Tangents.
In regards to the comic, it really is perfect. A few things could be cleaned up line wise, but most of that is just the sketchy style.
What you really did was create a sense of mood in this page. Just that tired, "I really hope this works" kinda stage when you're getting treatment for these kinds of things. The point about getting coffee and then falling weary on the bed afterwards was poignant as well.
Keep this going. I'd like to see more. ^_^
also i was really excited to see the honda accord in this comic for some reason XD sketchy car is best car.
I'm sure your new therapist completely understands your insecurities with revealing everything all at once. It would be pretty surprising if you did, actually. Just go at your own pace and don't try to rush things. Your therapist knows exactly what she's doing, and she'll do everything she can to help. You've taken a huge step just by making the decision to put your faith in her. It's also pretty brave of you to post details of how things are going here (though I certainly would never expect you to reveal what goes on during the sessions). I wish you good luck with everything. I know it must be extremely difficult... My thoughts are with you.
I so happy that you're starting this comic up again. I hope tings get better and you therapists becomes an ally and a friend who you trust.
If you ever need an ear, you have my number.
Oh and what days the week of the 10-14 are you free so I can start planning a trip up to Amarillo to see you?
If you ever need an ear, you have my number.
Oh and what days the week of the 10-14 are you free so I can start planning a trip up to Amarillo to see you?
I had to try therapy too when my family started to fall apart. I always hated going there to talk about my problems, I always left feeling like complete shit wanting nothing to do with anybody. It was like cutting open scars with a blade to help this random stranger understand how shitty my situation was. In the end tho, I think things play out for the better. I hope that for whatever reason you're going for you find peace with your past and happiness in your future. Cheers, Green.
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