They say there's always light at the end of the tunnel, lately it feels like I'm just stuck in a cage, locked away from my happiness, only to be fooled to try and escape, but I just go in circles.. not finding my way out. Saying what's on my mind only makes everything worse... and my family wonders why I'm so quiet at home.. if I cry I'm a "baby" even if it's with something significant.. Just plain done.

Today was great, until my mom told me my horse was dieing, he had a heart attack a few days ago and he wasnt good since.. hence why my aunt kept me away from the barn.. but I wasnt told about his episode.. nor that he was dieing until now.. where he's on his death bed and I still not allowed to see him and say goodbye.. I cried all evening and I got called a "baby" because according to my stepdad "Nobody cares about a fucking sick horse". Honestly so fucking sick of all this bullshit..

-Vent.