Oh wow. I happened upon this by chance when I logged in and I'm so glad I did. The emotion in this piece is simply striking...haunting. Sad..but hopeful for something better. You are amazing.

After reading the description I want to give you a big hug and tell you to hang in there. Many of our sorrows come to us in order to prepare us to appreciate much more beautiful things to come. Keep your chin up. You never know what is just around the bend.

Truer words have never been spoken so well. Thank you.

You are most welcome. I also recently went through a great pain, losing my home, my job and my partner of years. I thought I would never recover until I found out why I had to lose it all. Because of that loss I took a chance on going somewhere new and I met the man I am going to marry. This joy would have been lost to me had I kept clinging to what I had before. Everything happens for a reason.

I would humbly request the great honor of composing a cheerful tune for your joyous event.

For now, my music is the way it is to comfort me.

That would be so kind of you. It's not until July but I'd love to hear what you would create. Music is a great comfort. Without it, I would never have survived the hard times in my life.

i sit here crying at my keyboard, i feel the same way... i just couldnt put it into words. i have so many conflicts in my life, i dont know what to do. i wish i could just leave it all behind and go to a world where everyone is happy, free, unjudged, and loved. with music like this in all the houses. thanks so much for posting this, its an amazing piece, and i really hope it moved you as much as it did me. *hugs*

It will be ok, Jovo, it really will. We are all here for you. I have lived long enough to know the world is a cruel, unforgiving place; nothing is fair in this life.

This is what drives me to make my music: to tell others that they are not alone. Be encouraged: you are not alone.

that was very good.... I know this is a bit of a bland comment but not being a musician all I can do is listen and enjoy...

V.

You would not believe what good it does my heart to hear even what you would call "bland" comments.

Thank you.

wow!!!! wonderful....

I liked the first two minutes especially....it seems as if you start dreaming and watching at yourself......your past....softly :)

and I love the voice of the piano you used. Is it the original voice of a digital piano or a sample or a concert grand? :)

I study piano (my passion <3) but I still have a lot of things to learn before being able to do such a wonderful improvisation :)

Thank you so very much. I am actually using Alicia Keys's piano for this short improvisation. She had a company sample her amazing, one-of-a-kind aluminum finish Yamaha and it is just beyond beautiful.

The song is, quite actually, a chronological stream of consciousness I was having at the time as I played. I will try to recall how I progressed through it (forgive the lack of punctuation in some place; I don't have much time to respond right now).

0:15 excitement and trepidation over a new semester of school
0:34 endless possibility over being elected team-lead for 3 major classes
1:20 the gravity of my relationship with Ryoken takes hold with new meaning
2:00 excited with Ryo that he finally gets to go to AC after 10 years away
2:30 almost losing my father tragically
2:46 my sanity begins cracking a little at the near-death of my father
3:00 the triumph of my senior design team coming together when so much was against us
3:46 Ryoken goes to AC and has a "revelation experience"
4:04 Ryoken tell me he is leaving to live in Maryland, out of the blue
4:17 my sanity cracks a little more as I force myself mentally to prepare for his imminent departure
4:39 I realize, for the first time in my life, my life will be empty, a body without a spirit, after Ryoken leaves
5:00 all my defenses are gone, my plastic smiles don't fit anymore, and my heart breaks
5:22 I meet a couple new friends who work to cheer me, though they don't know that they are helping (brief interlude)
5:33 Self-realization that I am what holds Ryoken back from being happy in his life
5:45 My throat condition destroys a portion of my singing voice and finally drives me to the cracking point where, 2 doctors and 3 specialists later, I require medical intervention which causes "unintended" side effects of depression and suicidal tendencies
6:07 I graduate college, which while so tremendously exciting, I have to say goodbye to so many people I know and love
6:22 My brothers decide to return home for Christmas, which overjoys me as we have not been a whole family for years now
6:28 On Christmas Eve, my beloved, darling little shining jewel of a girl dog is diagnosed with late stage terminal cancer, and tomorrow, I must take her to be set free from this world…and, I wish I had more time. Dear God, I wish I had more time…
6:42 My mind numbs over, and I cannot play anymore.


Moral of the story: If you love someone, tell them today, right the hell now. Do not wait one second. Blink, and they are gone, and you will live, like I now live, alone, in a room full of shadows, with nothing but the memories of the things I wish I had done, and the regret that I did not appreciate her like she deserved. My girl, my kindred spirit…why? Just…why?

For a moment, I thought it was over in the middle. Just long enough of a pause to make me wonder...
This has such a very powerful message that I'm certain everyone understands. For all my experience and skill as a smith of letters, I simply haven't the words to describe it. I'm so glad you were able to bring it to everyone through song. Excellent work.

Wow, this is beautiful and you really do tell a story through the music.

Hopefully this year can be somehow better. Though for most folks I know (including me) it's started out pretty craptastic ... Ugh. Nowhere to go but up ... *big hugs*

It certainly has been a busy year, but I am overjoyed that in the end I remain by your side, dearest wolf.

*hugs* Very beautiful.