You probably won't know because I don't complain about it much, but my body is pretty much falling apart. I hurt so many hours of every day. But I only care about that because it's such a small thing that holds me back from helping Dorian more. And I can't really help anyway, he hurts so much most of the time.

I feel so helpless. I'm tired of my aching joints, I'm tired of my malfunctioning body, I'm so, so tired and frustrated with seeing Bladewing hurting so much. (those are his feathers I'm reaching for)