Finally i think i have created a decent reference for Meru, basically simple and to the point
since Meru is my main character she has the same personality as me.. but i suppose i could put down the info about her.

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Species: Tigress

Age: currently what ever age i am now

Sex: Female

Height: 5'3"

Eyes: Emerald Green

Bust: if you must know.. D
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Likes: star shapes, cupcakes, collars, glow sticks(or anything that glows period), creepy things, gas masks, video games, drawing

Dislikes: kids, syringes, obnoxious people, caramel, being yelled at

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When first meeting Meru she can be really shy and come off a little backwards at times (and what i mean by being backwards is she doesn't really jump out and attempt to make friends, so its reeeaaally hard to make friends.. instead she would be the one sitting in a corner.. staring at a person, hoping they would come up and hopefully speak to her first), but once she gets to know a person and become friends with them she then feels more comfortable to show her playful, talkative, carefree side. mostly likes to keep to herself but always puts her needs last as she puts other people first. so usually if help is needed she would be the first to rush in to see what she could do, specially for a friend.
► ► ►Meru Expression Chart◄ ◄ ◄
Not very outspoken as she keeps her opinions to herself, but when wearing her ringmaster attire she becomes more determined and confident to tell you what she wants and will do what ever it takes to get it.
► ► ►Meru's Ring Master Outfit Link◄ ◄ ◄

as for other attire she will wear just about anything that she thinks suits her, mostly comfortable shirt and jeans/short combinations. likes to go barefoot but will wear shoes. will rarely wear dresses or skirts unless its for a special occasion because she is tomboyish a bit.

on her back is a black angel wings tattoo, but at any time she wishes the tattoo gives Meru the ability to sprout out her very own white angel wings. in which they can be displayed anyway she wants.. small, medium, large or even cute like.

Meru is skilled and can be very lethal with scythes and kusarigamas (her most favorite weapons so likes to collect them) if she is wearing her ring masters outfit then of course she becomes skilled with a whip.

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because her mother who is a beast (they also have the same blood type..so that beastly blood is flowing thru her veins), she inherited beastly powers of her own but they only come out when she is angered. it's like a yin and yang aspect.. good and bad.. like for instance shadow cannot exist without light.
when angered enough Meru goes unconscious which allows her split personality.. who likes to be called Malice, will take the chance to take control of Merus body. (When the change happens Merus body will turn a grungy orange, while her eyes go pitch black with a burning red pupil)
► ► ►Malice Example Link◄ ◄ ◄
► ► ►Malice Example Link◄ ◄ ◄
Malice is quite blood thirsty and has a animal-istic fighting style (or i suppose you could say a hack and slashing style) and not to forget has supernatural strength. Malice can control the shadows and her blood (wanted her to be able to be deadly with her blood because i really like Dead Man Wonderland) to bend at her will to do anything possible to cause harm to anyone that stands near her even her friends.

Malices preferred weapons consist of her huge claws and her abilities to make her own blood and the shadows around her to become deadly. even though Meru has the fear of syringes(Malice has no fears, out of thin air Malice can pull out a huge very sharp tipped syringe to fight with.
► ► ►Malice with syringe◄ ◄ ◄

in order for Malice to be sealed back within Meru, she has to wake up from her unconscious state.. which may take awhile as Malice will do anything to prolong her time on the outside. so depending on how much anger Meru feels the longer Malice can have control. (and the thing that could get Meru angry in a heartbeat was if anyone was to cause harm to her boyfriend.. that would send her quickly into a fury, as she would do absolutely anything to protect him from harm)