*wraps arms round the ice until it melts*

Stuff like that doesn't heal depression...

No, but I'm going to hug you forever

I should talk to you soon |=(:/

All have down times. I've been depressed too. So how come you feel like this?

I never had irl friendships, and people I meet over the internet all live far.

Damn, it must suck to have no one around you to just chit chat or do stuff.
I really hope you'll come across a u-turn and can get a little change in your life.

- w- Winnin' the lotto or suicide are the most probable options

Yes, and none of them will help at all.
I don't know if you have a work or studies but if not, try to get yourself to do something. I myself have been suicidal but I managed to keep myself from these dark thoughts.
I started to draw.
My poisoned mind slowly recovered from all my negative thoughts and I slowly grew happy again.
I don't think these words will help very much but now you know how I did it to get away from it. You need to find a way too.

3rd year college, doing something I hate, something I didn't want to because I didn't have the money to study abroad. Drawing doesn't help. It's a downward spiral. I'm drawing something that is socially unacceptable, I'm living in a society that's closed to creativity. Drawing is seen as useless and not profitable, therefore people doing it are ridiculed.

I wish I had something clever to say, but I don't. I'm sorry. Just try to hold on and don't do something you'd regret. It's for your own good.

It is possible to make a living drawing, and those who can, while not held in high honor by society, in my opinion are more worthy of praise than all Olympic athletes combined, regardless of what they draw.

As for the "not acceptable by society" thing, fuck society. If I had 1 wish, and the rules were such that I couldn't make life fair, I would end all life on the planet, or at least all human life. It'd be karmaticly neutral at worst.