I am a lot like that, actually.

I've never even been much of a touchy-feely sort of person either..
But lately, for some reason my head is like hey, so that thing you never liked? It's going to be super important now.
I do not understand and I want it to go away. D:

At least I can take comfort in knowing I'm not alone and not losing my mind. XD

shh I know the feeling all too well xD Do you has skype? owo I am not the best at comforting but I am very good at listening.

It's same as my username here~
And it's alright. XD
I'm not very good at expressing myself lmao. Posting this has made me feel a little better though, even though I swear I sat staring at that description for ages not even sure if I was expressing how I felt correctly or not haha.

Unfortunately for you Sharky I've been deep into new books. I read what you wrote and this is what came out my mind.


New Soul
To be the shadow of the dark, living in the day seen but not understood
this is where i always have existed, empty, sure, and content
but something new has come along and a small light blooms within me
fear of this is mostly what i understand as light has always chased me one way or another bringing with it ruin of my solitude
to the darkness i can never return where of things i am sure
to the light i will cross with you never to return to my true home
a sadness heavy in my soul will miss the familiar
a happiness bursting from some other part of me fills in the gaps and makes me more sure
i will walk with you, trusting, testing, wanting
to my new home i go, resistant and fragile
to the light i go

-Bracabrad

This took a small time to wright but a long time to feel. Hope this helps.

Mm that's pretty accurate, and well written!
I know that the way I was, was more or less just due to people always hurting me one way or another.
So I lived for me, cared for me, other people around was nice but something I didn't crave at all.
It wasn't a good way to feel at all, but this feeling of wanting someone to love and hold but not being able to feels worse. :c

Thanks from time to time i get the urge to wright. this was just one of those times.
that last part never lasts forever. It did last what i thought was a long time. i suggest reading.

being far from the one person you want to hold so bad it hurts really sucks. Well feelings really suck at times, i can say I want to hold you even more but it won't help much. What I can say is that I will see you very soon :).

Lol that's only a temp fix. :p
Plus these are general feelings.
As much as I want to see you, this isn't totally about you.
It's more about me.

Your heart is glowing! You've got a lot of love to give!