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This drawing is rough, but it's based on a song. A song I associate with a memory. He was the great love of my life. I won his heart by drawing him a comic strip - I gave it to him at uni in an envelope. We dated for almost one year before we parted ways. He was going to Paris you see, and I just didn't think I was special enough to keep him interested while he was that far away. I gave him up, and wished a thousand times afterward that I hadn't.
The song is by Avril Lavigne. I know she's a bit cheesy, but damned if this tune doesn't make my heart break everytime I hear it. -_-
"Things I'll Never Say"
I�m tuggin� at my hair
I�m pulling at my clothes
I�m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I�m staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I�m searching for the words inside my head
I�m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
�Cause I know you�re worth it
You�re worth it, yeah
If I could say what I want to say
I�d say I want to blow you� AWAY�.
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down�. on one knee�
Marry me today
Guess I�m wishing my life away�
With these things I�ll never say
It don�t do me any good
It�s just a waste of time
What use is it to you what�s on my mind
If it ain�t coming out
we�re not going anywhere
So why can�t I just tell you that I care
Cause I�m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you�re worth it
You�re worth it, yeah
What�s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I�ve got nothing to say�
But I�m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you�re worth it
You�re worth it, yeah.
The song is by Avril Lavigne. I know she's a bit cheesy, but damned if this tune doesn't make my heart break everytime I hear it. -_-
"Things I'll Never Say"
I�m tuggin� at my hair
I�m pulling at my clothes
I�m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I�m staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I�m searching for the words inside my head
I�m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
�Cause I know you�re worth it
You�re worth it, yeah
If I could say what I want to say
I�d say I want to blow you� AWAY�.
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down�. on one knee�
Marry me today
Guess I�m wishing my life away�
With these things I�ll never say
It don�t do me any good
It�s just a waste of time
What use is it to you what�s on my mind
If it ain�t coming out
we�re not going anywhere
So why can�t I just tell you that I care
Cause I�m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you�re worth it
You�re worth it, yeah
What�s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I�ve got nothing to say�
But I�m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you�re worth it
You�re worth it, yeah.
Category All / General Furry Art
Species Housecat
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File Size 147.6 kB
Yes I think that's the worst part. I see him evertime he visits him family at Christmas. He comes to my house ad tells me about his life, his girlfriend, and I'm always sure when I see him that I don't even care anymore. Then just as he leaves and walks down the street, he turns, smiles, and blows me a kiss. It might as well be a slap in the face, because it stings so bad.
Hmmm, well no matter what the problem hun I think that you're still a wonderful person. You'd very much have been worth interest, but I do know tha tlong distance relationships can be straining. It must have been really hard for you to have fought with that decision and I can only hope that there won't be even a hundred, nor even ten, times more where you wish that this had not been so.
Thanks Ryzer - you're really sweet (as if you didn't know that). ^_^
I've moved on and things haven't been bad for me since then. It's just that I know he was special. I think he helped me to feel clean and good again after all the bad experiences I'd had. Deep down I think I knew it wasn't meant to be.
I've moved on and things haven't been bad for me since then. It's just that I know he was special. I think he helped me to feel clean and good again after all the bad experiences I'd had. Deep down I think I knew it wasn't meant to be.
Oh, Fio looks so sad!
If regrets were pebbles, the righteous would build a new mountain every day. Sometimes there isn't much one can do about things past. I assume you lost touch with him completely?
By the way, I made up that expression, so if you ever duplicate it, you owe me a nickel :P
If regrets were pebbles, the righteous would build a new mountain every day. Sometimes there isn't much one can do about things past. I assume you lost touch with him completely?
By the way, I made up that expression, so if you ever duplicate it, you owe me a nickel :P
*snuggles* First of all, you did a perfect job drawing Fio in this one, teh hair looks incredable and her expression, especially combined with her ears make the mood not only obvious (but damnit cute!! you're even cute when you're upset....i just get an ugly red and blotchy >.>)
*lix your cheek and huggles* I wish you the self confidence that made you give him away. Listen to meat loaf:
"But it was long ago and it was far away, oh God it seems so very far
And if life is just a highway, then the soul is just a car
And objects in the rear view mirror may appear closer than they are
And objects in the rear view mirror may appear closer than they are"
Linky to more lyrics: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/m/meat+l....._20091252.html
And yes, long distance relationships are VERY tough. Take it from me- hubby's Canadian, I'm american. Met him 3 1/2 years ago online, been engaged to him 2 and married to him 1 and i'm JUST NOW moving to live with him in a couple weeks.... If you love each other enough, it only makes it stronger.
>^.^< Don't worry Fio, if it WAS meant to be he'll come back into your life, if not, there's another dreamboat heading your way...
now whether its a speed boat or a cruiseboat...nobody can say.
*lix your cheek and huggles* I wish you the self confidence that made you give him away. Listen to meat loaf:
"But it was long ago and it was far away, oh God it seems so very far
And if life is just a highway, then the soul is just a car
And objects in the rear view mirror may appear closer than they are
And objects in the rear view mirror may appear closer than they are"
Linky to more lyrics: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/m/meat+l....._20091252.html
And yes, long distance relationships are VERY tough. Take it from me- hubby's Canadian, I'm american. Met him 3 1/2 years ago online, been engaged to him 2 and married to him 1 and i'm JUST NOW moving to live with him in a couple weeks.... If you love each other enough, it only makes it stronger.
>^.^< Don't worry Fio, if it WAS meant to be he'll come back into your life, if not, there's another dreamboat heading your way...
now whether its a speed boat or a cruiseboat...nobody can say.
Thanks for the snuggles Sanura - I missed you when FA went down! *sob* If you have IM send me a note.
That's a lovely story about your husband!I'm genuinely happy for you and wish you all the best. You must be so excited! =^0^=
Oh, I've had many boats in my life. They're mostly the kind you have to row yourself, and I usually lose a paddle. Heh. *presently floating on a rubber life-raft with a hole in it*
That's a lovely story about your husband!I'm genuinely happy for you and wish you all the best. You must be so excited! =^0^=
Oh, I've had many boats in my life. They're mostly the kind you have to row yourself, and I usually lose a paddle. Heh. *presently floating on a rubber life-raft with a hole in it*
Once I was in state not much different from yours, I lived in empty hope and pain that comes from not wanting to love someone who doesn't love you. Then things went bad, really bad and my whole emotional life almost died, leaving only lot of hate, bitterness anger and such foul feelings of guilt and blame.
In that state many years passed and I lost almost all of my friends, my family hated me and i hated them back, all I had was the will to take it all out to someone or something, so I started to work out to become strong enough to take it on to anything. But as my body became stronger my mind also started to heal. I found a lot of new interests like Bushido, I refound art, I found kendo and judo, trough them life philosophies and actual peace eventually.
Now I will nomore maybe allow myself to feel the love, think about the love, hope for it, or believe in it, I am good as I am.
I like my friends, I am content of my being, and I keep on working out with selfdicipline, and silencing the emotions that only bring pain with them.
Some say it is not a way to live, but to me it is working out fine. I am content, it is a lot more than i used to be.
In that state many years passed and I lost almost all of my friends, my family hated me and i hated them back, all I had was the will to take it all out to someone or something, so I started to work out to become strong enough to take it on to anything. But as my body became stronger my mind also started to heal. I found a lot of new interests like Bushido, I refound art, I found kendo and judo, trough them life philosophies and actual peace eventually.
Now I will nomore maybe allow myself to feel the love, think about the love, hope for it, or believe in it, I am good as I am.
I like my friends, I am content of my being, and I keep on working out with selfdicipline, and silencing the emotions that only bring pain with them.
Some say it is not a way to live, but to me it is working out fine. I am content, it is a lot more than i used to be.
Wow.. that sounds intense. I'm very lucky in that I've always had loving family and friends to back me up whenever I've felt crappy.
*pat-pat* Sorry to hear about your ordeal. At least you're stronger now, and it must be very cool to be good at martial arts! ^0^
Your artwork is really great too, so you must be able to channel your energy into your art quite effectively.
Anyway, thanks for sharing your story and I wish you the best of luck for your future. Who knows, maybe you're heart will be opened by someone special again one day.
*pat-pat* Sorry to hear about your ordeal. At least you're stronger now, and it must be very cool to be good at martial arts! ^0^
Your artwork is really great too, so you must be able to channel your energy into your art quite effectively.
Anyway, thanks for sharing your story and I wish you the best of luck for your future. Who knows, maybe you're heart will be opened by someone special again one day.
i cant see how anyone would ever want to leave your side :: smiles sweetly :: your art alone shows just how amazing and special you are. you make meh smile n feel warm just looking at who you are through your art ^~ hes the one who lost out tho i know how it feels. :: giggles :: i sure am late to responding to this pic but better late than never eh? hehehe keep up the awesome n inspiring art! cutie ^^
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